so sad!!
i din get to play pool tdy..
not even get to touch d sticks..
seems i wasnt d onli one addicted to pool...
i din noe tampines safra's billard room was so packed...
and i din noe abang's "suhaimi and Q pn pergi per" bcame 6 boys...
Q gotta entertain her cousin so she din come..
i tot onli got abang and suhaimi..end up wif 'an,'hotstuff','haikal;suhaimi;agil and abang..
din getta wait til i actuali can break shot i left alrdy...
heard summ underaged boys got caught outside billard room smoking...
quite lucky for us cus we jus stepped back into d billard room...
den heard news frm 'an as he was still outside.
damn lucky lor..
arbo hsa got plenty of $$ to make..
aidil walked to interchange wif me..
i said he's crazy..
dis tym he keep on reminding me tt he's not drunk...
haha..

AKU NK MAIN POOL!!!

love
nana

tuesday...25 nov

went to east coast again on tuesday.. again...
go play pool again.. hahahaha
sabri got membership so got free playing tym..
nond pay...
walked frm d bustop at parkway dere towards ecp..
saw a bakery wif relli cute cakes!!!
Q was hungry at tt tym.. so we decided to share a cake..
its like superrrr cute..
we bought dis at $12?

sat at a bench to finish d cake b4 we left to play pool...

Q baby!!!

im getting so fucking bored at home!!!
i dun hve portfolio yet so dun hve assignments to do yet...
superrrrrr bored!!!
yesterday was d first audition for tt commercial photoshoot..
dunno can get in anot...
all d ppl are like super pro luh..
cnnt compare..im d youngest and d tallest..hahahahha
but dey all hve portfolio wor..
gna nedda hve a portfolio den can.. *sobx*
damn.. idk if tt modelling agency's a scam..
d internet hve writeups abt it aand got positive and negative comment leh...
if scam i die luh.. but first interview got audition for me to go ler..
suppose is d gals who went for interview unlucky ba?

im gna play pool agn tdy...
damn im broke...
I NEED A JOBBBBB!!!
cnt continue being jobless and playing pool to kill tym...
spend $$ not earn $$..


byebye...

love
nana

I HATE DIS!
I HATE ME!
DIS ISNT ME..
IDK ME..
SUMBODY TELL ME WHO D HELL IS DIS BITCH?
FUCKED UP!
I HATE DIS LIFE!
I HATE ME.
DIS ISNT ME!

STILL NO JOB IM SUPER BORED!!!

i've been job hunting recently and none returned back...
damn im bored...
d onli thing i've been doing is wasting my money...
not by buying things but playing pool..
i jus got back from tampines safra...
its like way cheaper dere then it is at east coast park..
can say i've been playing pool continuously..
and pool is smthng u can spend time quickly but oso waste money quickly...
but hu cares!!!
next tym wna play pool dun waste money at East coast... its like $11/hr for non member at nite dey call it peak hours...
and $10/hr for afternoon dis is d non peak hours one......
fyi deir peak hours means till midnite?or is it 3 in d morning?
go tampines safra...
its like $6 per hour only...
d onli person actualli playing wif me continuously is Joy..
cnt play pool wif d ballet gals...
dey wna try den aft awhile dey get bored...
damn jia lat...
cus according to alot of ppl, pool=ah lian/ah beng game...
but dose not 16 yet mus c how ler... cus sum plce got age limit...
=D im 16 alrdy!!!!

saw twin jus now...
wa sey she uh... alwaes wif sum guy idk...
and d 4E4 gang...
looks like dey had a chalet..
wa like damn fun like that...
i saw wen hao.. like aft so long...
he's so different..hmms...
better looking i must sae...
its strange how people change...
like me.. change for d worst...
but nvm.. i like it dis way...
the good dies earli so i rather not b a goody-too-shoe...
i rather b a spoilt brad...

It started out so perfect
Something God could only create
a union of both me and you on this special day
Never once did I take for granted
That you've been hurt before
So you treated me like a lady and even more
So I can't understand why you brought the storms into my life
Tell me why?
Now what once a beautiful lady
Must live with a heart that bleed
I hope you never have to come this way again
That was the end
So please don't take offense when I say what I have to say
Cause if you died I wouldn't cry cause you never loved me any way

going play pool agn tmrw...
gna call sum number for part tym job kaen find 4 me :)
blog agn soon.. i guess..

love
nana

suppose i will survive..
maebe its jus me...

prom night 19 november 2008

after prom night at changi... it was way passed midnight...
baby Q... chatting den camwhore wif ath's camera...

almost all of em were gone by d tym Alexander n i got dere...

dese two were d sweet ones.. dey sent me out jus to take a cab back home..

i was huggin... damn.. i dun even noe her name!!!

she's sweeet though...

damn act... haha.. d piano was locked...

d two guys so emo..

mcm statue...

but im no prince!!!!

all d guys did it though.. dey were like "piano prince cumming thru!"

Cs d piano prince?

Twk d other piano prince?

Alexander d piano prince?

WTF? who is d piano prince when d piano is actuali locked?

hahahahahahaha...

pictures wif oh not everyone...

Alexander...

Kaen!!!

Ms Zaleha...

Cs... action bodoh.. wear d shades... its like 9+ at night!!!

Twk... ex.. supposed to b husband?hahas

Farhana...

Natasha..

picture's a bit dark.. nvr on flash uh...

Tingting...

JiaQi...

Hafizz..

Mdm Yang...

Yiwei..

Chloe...

Yani..

Vivian...

shao hui...

Tiara...

lucky draw.. its kinder chocolates..

at Q's preparing for prom

almost ready.. i look so sleepy...

i stole dis pic frm elaine...

culdnt steal her picture cus she fotoshopped atll her pics together..

anybody got my pictures can pls send me?

thank u...

19 nov 2008..

magical at first but hurtful at last...

dun wna talk abt it..

a night to remember definately...

its jus not my time isnit?

somedae... MAYBE..

dun worry.. i'll b fine...


Like an accident

it happendOut of nowhere

It just happend

And I aint mad at all

Because I'veFallenHead over heels

I've fallenIn love with you

I've fallen

And I can't get up

Don't wanna get up

BabyTo let you get away is crazy

so I'm doing what it takes

To make you pledge your love to me

You see cause

I'm tryna be your lady

For ever and ever baby

The picture wouldn't be the same

If you weren't standing next to me
i wuldnt wna get involved wif u n ur lady...

its not my way and it isnt right...

i noe u noe how i feel...

i noe u dun feel d same...

cus u got a galfriend..

i totally understand that

n i shuld sae im allright wif that..

dis was for fun i might say...

i guess gals geet dis all d time..

tryna b ur lady's not gna b right

i totally m not ur type..

if we were meant to b we will..

if we're not.. we're jus not...

maebe jus a lil smthng tt night...

im glad u still talk to me..sweet lil thing...

magic?

it will b a night to remember...

i happy jus that way:)





love

nana

[credits to Q for helping me get prepared for prom,ath for pictures i stole=P]

Graduation day 13 november 2008



i hope i'll sucessfully graduate out of junyuan...

god i'll miss the tymms...

wif all my darlings, syggs, and loves...

we bcame like a family...

not classmates...

we got closer den classmates...

god i'll miss dem....



semangat kan.. even security uncle oso wna take pictures wif...

"Abg! kau xtra luh!!!"

Mummie of 4E1.. MS Z..

good students of d skull...

paikias of d skull?

smokers of 4E1... hahas...

Damn.. this is super spastic...

wif Ali-xander and the bimbo...

eh...behind ppl not ready yet!!!

Q...wad the hell are u looking at? the camera's not dere!!!

i stole these pictures from ppl's bloggs...hahaha

i think got summore...gna blog hop so can steal summore cus i noe i took more den jus dese few pictures...


love

nana

[credits to ath n dose who's camera took dese pictures cus i stole em frm ur bloggs]

Damn you...
idk wad i actuali did to offend you huh?
how big can your mouth get?
its my own problem.i'll solve it!!!
i dun need you to b dere for aniting...
i trusted you but then again...
WHY?
I SAID THAT ITS OVER!!! OVER!!!
WAD DO U NOT UNDERSTAND?
WAD IS IT THAT U WANT FROM ME HUH?
stop trying to look tt innocent infront of me...
its not gna help and i gues i noe ur game...
tell me now who is that two face bitch?
im like ur scapegoat for all that u sae...
suddenly im d one who created those troubles?
i've had had enuf...
enuf means enuf oke....
u reli reached the limit of JOKING.
F.Y.I THIS IS NOT A JOKE.
you think its fun going ard telling ppl d stuff that i told u?
i reali dun noe ur game dis tym...
u reali gone overboard...
it was because i trusted you...
i trusted u that much that u actuali did dis.
why?
its over and it wasnt supose to b a big deal..
i guess u shuld hve known better...
it was a secret.
doesnt mean that a handful of HIS frens noe that means MY frens hve to noe.
and especialli d one i kept quiet abt cus im afraid she'll get hurt if ima gna sae dis.
den it reli happened...
i shuld hve known better...
look gal... IDK YOUR GAME...
WAD IS IT TT U WANT FRM ME HUH?
MY FRENS U OSO WNA MAKE ME LOSE?
IS THAT RELI A BIG DEAL?
NOW THAT SHE NOES?
DOES IT MAKE U ANY HAPPIER?
GUESS SO...
JUST BCAUSE I KEEP QUIET, DOESNT MEAN IDK ANYTHING OKE.
BY USING ME?
I RELI TRUSTED U TOO MUCH...
bcause i dunn wna create any gala cus of frendship i kept quiet...
but u keep on hurting me over and over agn...
what is it tt ur not happy about?
bcause i make frens wif those u hate?
come on...
i guess i reli had enuf frm u...
idk if ur jealous or smthng...
supppose u are my 'best friend'?
"best friend" as in galfrens or "best friends" as in a man's best friend?
i guess tmrw will b last u'll hear frm me...
cus srsly im over wif u...
dis is personal so i guess... if ur not happy u shuld confront me instead of d gals...
u had a choice... a choice to not sae it...
i know.. although we're history but i guess i shuld b d one telling her abt it...
not u... dis is personal i culd sae and dis is btwn him n me...
reli i shuld sae...its not suppose to b liddat...
i noe.. but i kept it frm her and i hve my own reasons...
i jus din wna hurt her and since its history yy rake it up agn?
wna make me lose a galfren?
im sick n tired of shielding myself... n being d one to ans all d crap so yar...
is it oso a trend to tell ppl sumthng tt personal den tell that person "sorry syg"
if its gna help, i'd still b wif him...

im super pissed...

love,
nana

damn im reli nth without my fone... i wan picturesssssss!!!!!
watch t.v?
stay tuned to d coca cola ad.. its cute...
HOT HOT HOT!!!
i hate d weather!!! yy cant it jus RAIN?????????
i wanna buy coloured contacts!!!
cant wait till next week!!!!!!!!!!!
i got my ears evenly pierced... hahaha
2 on one ear...woots!!!!
damn.. im so sad... i cant get a nose piercing!!!!!!
FCUKKKKK!!!!

I WANNA WATCH TOKYO DRIFT!!!!!!!

WA IRRITATING LUH!!!! CANNOT SLEEP... CAN'T YOU CALL ME LIKE AT NIGHT? OR SMTHNG?KNNBCCB!!!
DUN HVE CELL FONE BUT HUS FONE... SIBEI IRRITATING LEH!!!
FUCK LUH!!WANNA SLP OSO CANNOT!!!!
CAN'T YOU ADVERTISE ON D PAPER OR SMTHNG?
WAD D HELL WAS TT COMPANY ANIWAES?
HONEY WAD?NVR HEAR B4 LUH...
TELL ME I WON A CAR OKE LUH... KNN GIVE CARD...
GIVE CARD MEANS NEED USE MONEY BUY DEN GT DISCOUNT RITE?
GIVE ME WAD PRIVILIAGE CARD?
DUN ND LUH... MY MUM GOT PLENTY!!!!
KNN!!!!SPEAK CHINESE D... I DUN UNDERSTAND A SINGLE WORD SHE SAID...xcept for tt privilage card thingy...
i was like:"I DUN SHOP!!!!"[oke tt was a lie]
nvm uh... cannot slp ler... d onli thing now is to eat...
no more maggiee mee!!! very unhealthy uh...
left d butterheads i bought d other dae...
aiya...first meal since ytd...
so eat lor...=P
sorry for d above...ani vulgar i spilled!!!

sumbody wan sponsor TOO FAST TOO FURIOUS:TOKYO DRIFT?
my disc let me watch till spoil ler...
i swear i watched tt show hundreds of tym ler....[tts not a lie]
*sobx sobx sobx*******

damn... i din noe bitch was a form of vulgar?
yy myy tagboard do dis[*****]?
hahahahahahaha...
too bad dey cant do on myy post...hahahahaha
love,
nana

i gt alot of things to sayyy!!!!!
hahahas...
went coffee bean to study yesterday
aft i took application form for tt job...
idk if i'll b able to even work or if i'll get hired...
i hope i do though...
how fun would it be to actually b under the sun and in water?
i met twin at coffee bean as for d first tym ever i was d early one to arrive...
[im not joking!!!]
den Shikin came along den Yani...
4 of us 2 tables... but later we realised it wasnt enuf as Sebas and Hezron was otw...
Sebas came first cus Hezron hve papers to sit for...
he managed to squeeze wif us though...
it was a thursdae and idk y coffee bean was so packed...
we "snatched" tables from ppl wen d first batch left...
we felt bad uh... srsly...
den Yani companied me to buy filters for Sebas cus he sae he "tak aku tak boleh pass"
went tt mama shop...
expensive wor dere...$11.40
but its cheaper by 20 cents luh...
den go back coffee bean tkdr plce lagi...
d ppl hu take d table wanna use d connection for internet so bo pian...
we spotted another table which is a few steps away...
den cannot leave Sebas alone so i pei him...
ouh... d guy hu took our table was a peervert!!!!!!!
Yani warn me cus twin oso saw him looking at my butt!!!
hahahahaha... i pointed middle finger at dem though n diao tt guy...
eeeeewwww..handsome nvm... ugly like idk wad...
aft tt suppose is sae go toliet one den Yani twin n me go walking..not shopping...
go c nities... hahahaha...
ouh.. got ppl give rose to use... dey oso do free hand thingy for us cus we fill a form or smthng...
mary chia got promotion...
its waxy... but v smooth...
got rose smell too!!!
den go back... i sat wif d gals leaving Sebas alone cus uh...
i sit wif him i wan slp ler...
he very quiet lor...
read notes n write...
listen to music... nvr talk one...
till Hezron came in den oke luh...
later on i went "walking" wif twin...
she go c shoes... v nice uh...
but uh.. all close to $50 d leh...
n all high... she wear,we same height. i wear... c d world so clearly frm d top uh!!!
i like to talk to her... v fun...

i didnt slp ytd...or shuld i sae dis morning?
im freaking tired!!!
suppose to upload pictures d but my fone i dropped in daddie's car...*sad*
feels wierd uh....
lit was tdy...
dere's like so many pages!!!
n we're actuali supose to do onli 2 questions out of 9 which took up 12 pages...
srsly... no tym to write...
i wasted tym on actualli trying to figure out which question im suppose to do..
cus dey sae dis: ans 1 question frm dis section...
den got 7 Qns wich dey write liddat:either 1(a)
or 1(b)
or 1(c)
dis went on for all d qns...
haizz... heartland was a lil tuff...
i did prose first....

tts all tdy... nth great happened so far... xcept...I MISS MY FONE!!!
And I WANNA SLEEP!!!
will upload wen i post nxt tym!!!
ouh... on last thing... I LOVE CLAIRE CHING!!!


I miss your smile
I miss your laugh
I miss everything about you.
I see you everyday and all I can do is smile and wave.
When I really want you back
I care so much for you.
I don't understand what did I do?
I thought we would be together for so long
You were so sweet and charming with you words you said.
But something happened
I don't know what went wrong
I cried so hard just lying in my bed.
I say I am over you but I really know
I can't forget you and I never will.
I want you back and I love you so.
You don't even care and don't even know.
I saw you the other day
Talking to that girl I know
I stopped and stared
I just couldn't look away.
i don't know why
It hurt so bad.
why did it have to turn out this way?
I guess we'll never be together again like I had wished.
I'll never forget you and the times we had.
I don't hate you and I am not pissed.
I just miss you so
but I guess you'll never know.

love,
nana

You Said It Wasn't
Gonna Be Like It
Was BeforeThen It Happened Again
Pushing Me Back Out The Door
Thought It Would Be Forreal This Time
Love Me Forget About The Signs
So Now What Do I DoNow,
That I Know That We're Through
Wish That I Could Move On
Can't Let Go, It's Too Strong
Just Like That And Then You're Gone
Is This How You Wanted It To Be
Everything You Had To Say
Sent The Tears Right Down My Face
Now I'm Trying To EscapeThe Misery
Why Don't You Love Me
The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You're Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It QuicklyCause I'm Tired Of Cryin
If You Don't Wanna Stick Around
Then, Baby, Forget About Me
Too Late, SorryI Didn't Even Have The Chance
You Said You Were Happy
Baby, I Don't Understand
Gave You Everything You Asked
ForAnd Was Ready To Give A Lot More
I Would've Given The World
Right In The Palm Of Your Hand
Wish That I Could Move OnCan't Let Go,
It's Too Strong
Just Like That And Then You're Gone
Is This How You Wanted It To Be
Everything You Had To SaySent
The Tears Right Down My Face
Now I'm Trying To EscapeThe Misery
Why Don't You Love MeThe Way I Loved You
It Feels So CrazyCause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You're Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It QuicklyCause
I'm Tired Of Cryin
If You Don't Wanna Stick Around
Then, Baby, Forget About Me
Boy, My Heart Was True
And That You Can't Deny
Don't Be A Fool And Walk Away From All The Lies
It's Up To YouCause Heaven Knows I've Tried
Tell Me You're Still In Love
Why Don't You Love Me
The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You're Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It Quickly
Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin
If You Don't Wanna Stick Around
Then, Baby, Forget About MeForget About Me...
elaine got me to listen to dis song...
its so how i feel... well... maeb tts wad she feels bah....
gals...
we owaes get hurt....


im having mixed feelings now...
i kip tinking of him...
idk yyy...
but its like so crazy...
trying trying trying to forget bout him....
letting go is not smthng i wanna do..
but...
shi qu de bu neng zai liu zu....








jeremy saes XXX d galfren is CAL...
hmms... i hven seen her yt...
so... it shows....
i've gotta let him go tt tym cus i noe long ago tt his heart isnt mine animore...
wo zao jiu shu ler...
cus i dun wanna admit tt i've lost d game so i hung on..
but as tym flies.. i realised im not d one in his heart animore...
not animore...
n yes... it showed...
springfield gal...
so familar....
it is her aniwaes...
damn... idk y i felt like i've been cheated agn...
all tt he said was d same to other gals....
but summone did stepped in and rescue me...
but he left me also... so dere was no point in all my relationships aniwaes...
idk yyy idk how i culd jus fade away...
like wen i tot he was reli mine...
smthng swept him away frm me... again...


im lost... almost done wif papers...
im effing tired todae...
took short naps during d paper...
my eyes continued to shut..on and off...
wen i pinched myself to stay awake, i looked ard and realised i wasnt d onli one...
samson was taking winks too...

ouh.. tt teacher is effing irritating!!!!
she drags her heels wen walking.. and she walks slowly...
and LOUDLY!!!!
so skinny one person can actuali make d whole floor vibrate...
cant she jus stay one corner?
if pretty nvm shes fugly!!!!


tired of all dis...
even under shuffle n my mp3, dey alwaes play songs tt'll make me cry...
tt'll make me remembe how i used to hve it all and den falling again...

maebe i'll die faster with d rate im burning my sticks...

but den agn.. who cares? cus i dun... i srsly dun...

with love,

nana