NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I MAY GET HURT BECAUSE OF YOU,I WON'T LEAVE YOU.BECAUSE EVEN IF I HAD A HUNDRED REASONS TO LEAVE YOU,I'LL LOOK FOR THE ONE REASON TO FIGHT FOR YOU.

I REALLY WANNA BE WITH YOU RIGHT NOW.
I FUCKING MISS YOU STUPID MATREP.


LOVE,
NANA

its sad we don't talk anymore.
its disappointing my fone nvr rings anymore.
i wna talk to u so bad but i cnt seem to find the reason or excuse to.
imy baby.
you mean alot to me.and.... i know what you've been thinking of b.



life is so unfair.
all i know now is that i want you in mine.
i really dont care abt anything else.
for once,i wna be selfish for me.

i love you b.

love,
Nana

Labels: i hate this....

hello people..

Labels: imy.

The 1 that got away, so cliche, yet so annoyingly true.

It took 1 song to remind me of the fact that its human nature to obsess over what we couldn’t have, whats worse, someone we had but lost.

That person who was once such a huge part of your life (perhaps your entire life even), someone you shared time and more with, who managed to carve an impression deep enough into your heart, and mind, forming some kind of undeletable memory that eventually manages to get thrown to trash, but never erased entirely from the system.
The steps taken to forget ironically reinforces the memory.

All that time, effort and promiscuity merely reinforces the importance of that particular you. The sacrifices made, the life wasted, the tears shed and the breath shortiened.

The refusal to admit ones self naiviety of trusting empty promises and scripted sweet nothings. The lack of closure, which was merely another excuse to not let go of whats snatched away.

Too know that the 1 person who was your only salvation would end up being the same to stand by and just watch you fall, and eventually, turn away when you crash.



i might have fallen.
i might have been in love before,but not this strong.
i want to stand up knowing you're still watching.
i want to stand up and learn how to run,so i can run back into ur arms baby.
i maybe broken now,but im not defeated.
after all you've said and done,after all i've said and done,its not suppose to blow this way.
the many nights you've sacrificed?
the many moments you and i both love.
you didn't write the start of my life story,but i know you'll write the ending.
you only wrote 3 months of our love and you stopped halfway thru the book.
baby,my life isn't completed yet.
i thought it was when u first pen everythingin my book,but i realised you don't wantto be the one who writes the middle,you'll write my ending.
yes,i still believe.yes,i believe in foerver after.yes i believe nothing but love lasts forever.
yes i believe in fate.yes i believe we are meant to be.and yes i believe in destiny.but more importantly,i believe in you and me.

love,
Nana
"and WE lived happiler ever after"

Labels: sing me the nanana song now...

Labels: and i'm sorry i've been selfish...but please know that i seriously love you deepdown...

Dear Baby;
the one you left behind still has words and promises she haven't made.
so do you.
you love me stillthats why you insisted in this.
you want the best for me,i know.
so do i.thats why im trying to be the best for you.
but it hurts me knowing you rather give up.
stop lying to urself and i'llpromise i'll be the one.
i'll take care of myself so im strong and healthy to support u.
i'll be strong for u.
you know i will.
you still believe in me.i can see that.
i still feel u behind those lies.

love,
Nana


Calling out your name
Your face is everywhere
I'm reaching out to you
To find that you're not there
I wake up every night
To see the state I'm in
It's like an endless fight
I never seem to win
I can't go on as long as I believe
Can't let go when I keep wondering

my hands are aching.
playing with bloco is super fun.
and yes.alot of concentration is needed.
i wna play again.
samba is really hard but its really fun!
fuckit.
i won't be in town next weekwhich means....no practise!
shootme.
im playing for news year.
damnit.
i want to play!
i cruzily hopes syed will arrange tym for me!!!



Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
imy.i know u do.
ilu b.


love,
Nana

Labels: after all this time, its still you

say i'm stupid.
say i'm crazy.
say i'm out of my mind.
i don't care.
checking my phone for your name evey single moment and knowing its somebody else everytimemy phone rings is really losing me.
but,recieving your text today really made my day happier.

baby,if you're even reading my blog,i'm telling you now.
you never gave up chasing me.
you tried many ways but i rejected you.
but you never gave up.
your every actions touched me so much more.
we've came this far tgt hand in hand.
my mood is failing my health terribly.
i've lost my smile.
say i'm stubborn for all i care,
i'm not giving up.
i'm not gna believe in others.
i really hope you won't listen andget distracted by what others says or feel.
like what u said from the start of the r/s.
i really hope you still believe.
believe in me that i'll always be there.
i'llgive you anything and everything that i could ever give.
through weakness and strength,
happiness and sorrows,
i will love you with every beat of my heart.

i'm not rich.and money is not what i hope will come btwn us.
u believed me me before,why can't you now?
i've realised i cannot live without you.
its really a hard tym for me.
i'm really lost.
i'm doing the best i can b.
and you are worthy of me.
i'm always afraid i can't be the girl u dreamed of thats why i'm doing the best i can to be perfect for you.
i am praying and waiting everyday for you to come back.
i really am.

my day and night sees you.
my heart loves you.
my mind misses you.
i want you.
i still want you.
baby, i'm sorry.

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go You know I won't give in
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
So far awayI wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly

don't sing this.read this.you'll know how i feel and really mean.
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do,
I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me

Labels: i still believe in destiny that you and i were meant to be...

love is where everyone tells you that it won't workbetween you two,give you millions of reasons why it wouldn't work but you give them one why you're sure it'll work.


hello sugars.
im currentlyu can say not well or sick.
its a fucking bad thing for me now.
mybody's rejecting food and i almost blacked out just now AGAIN.
mygod.im not aneroxic.idk whats wrong but it could be cus of my mind.
im currently eating half a bowl of rice for 24hours.
somehow,i cnt seem to eat :(
pray that i'll survive cus im trying to eat properly alrdy.
imsuper duper weak now.
and not from the first,everyone who sees me says that im pale. wtf.
i've actually been losing my appetite2 weeks back alrdy.
and im worse now.alot worse since the day he left.
somehow,i live in him.you know.
i'll get sick when i really really miss him.
and no.it isnt always like that.
thistym, its really jialat.seriously.
i can blackout anytym.anytym.
this is seriously not good.
im letting my mind take over.
its reallybad.

there were alot of people in bloco like omg.
the energy is power!
they can seriously continue playing forhalf an hour and its the same beat.
fuck!
im really weak now and it isnt helping.
i hope things gets better on thursday.


mom's been a nag adding stress into my life.
i get scolded for the most random things.
it sucks man.
anyways,with mom and dad,its one ear in one ear out.
i wished i had a older brother and a younger sister.
older one will protect me.
younger one will be the attention.
then i'll be completely free.
F.R.E.E.
not gna work.im fucking 17 alrdy.
really,its not a completely good thing if u're the only child.
seriously.

okay,enuf said im tired.
I love you baby.
gdnight.

love,
nana

Labels: its still you., WOLFGANG :D

just yesterday you said you loved me
that there was nobody else above me
that I was yours and you were mine
that there was no limits to our skies
but then you had put our love on hold
now your telling me to leave
I gotta walk out the door
can't you see that this is killing me,
its hurting my soul,
oh baby how am I supposed to leave you when my heart tells me to keep you
how can you ask me to let you go
Can't you see im slowly dyin'
But Im gonna keep on tryin'
Please don't ask of me to let you go

let me start by telling you
i love you with all my heart
but i can't understand the reason
when you tell me you're leavin
boy me and you were supposed to be
forever and ever now instead of being in love
its like we used to each other how can we do this to each other,
we used to ride for each other
die for each other
cry for each other
now it's like all you wanna do is say bye to each other
i can't let this happen i refuse to lose you
i love you baby
it's the truth
as usual i wanna make you happy
boy it ain't hard to see you mean the world to me
we done been through it all thick and thin
right or wrong
i can't let you go cause this love is too strong

look baby just tell me what you want
look baby just tell me what you need
look baby I know I'm far from perfect
the game and the money, they could take it
it's worthless i know it's hard to deal with my life
i know it's hard to deal with all the gossip
i done seen him with this one, i done seen him with that one
but everything they say is monotonous
can't you hear it in my voice
darling you my heart my soul my love
and i swear to you baby i just wanna give you my heart my soul my love
i know we can work this out
i know we can baby let's try
but the one thing i won't do is let this love die




baby,you know,i'll nvr give u up.
cus u didnt gave me up.
you did all that u could to get me into ur life.
imnot giving you up just because of smthng that could be solved.
itsnot a problem.its just an issue.
imgiving it time.
imgna distract myself by joining bloco.
i'll keep myself just as busy as you are.
i really wna return to ur arms baby.
u know that.
im believing.
i know what your concerns are.
i'lldo everything.
im not listening to the gossips and remarks anyone else say.
i'm hoping you still believe.
i'mbelieving we'll be tgt again.
likeyou said b,we're husband and wife material. you're still holding on till you had ur fun and then come and marry me.its meant to be.
cus i can honestly tell u this,
i'm lost without you.i have no sense of direction anymore.
i know you well enuf to understand your personality.
i'llgive you time.
you're not happier.i know.
till the day u wna settle down,u'll see that i've always been there.
waiting for you.
because baby, i love you.
im sure u do too and im sure u know it too.




I couldn’t stop the gloom that engulfed me as I realized I didn’t know how long I would have to wait before I saw him again.

love,
Nana

Labels: u make me wna call u in the middle of the night.u make me wna hold utill the morning light.u make me wna love.u make me wna fall.u make me wna surrender my soul.

Labels: the only one i belong to.

dearest Baby;



it looked familiar doesnt it?
everytym i sat on ur lap :D

Labels: can we go back to how we used to be?

dear baby,

I LOVE YOU MEANS I ACCEPT YOU FOR THE PERSON THAT YOU ARE.

Labels: i'll do whatever it takes to keep us together baby.

ITS 0213HOURS.
HELLO SUGARS!
IM EXTREMELY HAPPY TODAY.
YES,IM GNA BLOG THIS POST IN CAPS.
IM A MILLION TIMES A HAPPY GIRL TODAY.
I'VE FELT BLESSED.BUT NOT LIKE THIS.
I'VE FELT THE HAPPINESS ALL THAT JOY CAN BRING.
I BOUGHT MY LOVE TO THE MOVIES TODAY!
COUPLE'S RETREAT.
FUNNY AND NO MEANING SHOW.LOL.
WENT TO BABY'S HUS TO WAKE HIM UP FOR THE DATE.
GOOD THING I DIDNT SAY MEET HIM SOMEWHERE.
THINK HE'LL SHOW UP AT 3 IF I SAID 1.
HAPPY TO SEE HIS HAPPY LOOK WHEN HE POURED OUT THE CHOCOLATES :D
NVR EXPECTED HIM TO WEAR THE PENDANT I BOUGHT THOUGH.
HIS IMMEDIATE REACTION TO FIXING IT TOHIS NECKLACE IS THE LIL TINGLE I FELT STILL.
IM REALLY HAPPY:D
BUSSED DOWN TO HARBOURFRONT FROM CCK.
"STILL LOVING YOU"?
BABY,WHEN PLAYED THOSE SONGS,I KNEW U DONT WNA GO.
WALKED ARD FINDING FOOD AS MOVIE STARTS @ 7.
WE ENDED UP EATING AT MACDONALDS.HAHA
MY APETITE IS KILLING ME.
BABY HAD MEGA MAC UPSIZED + MY FRIES AND HALF A NUGGET.
I ATE A FEW STRIPS OF FRIES AND 3 NUGGETS.WTF.
I CNT EVEN SWOLLOW 6 NUGGETS!
I WAS FULL AND REALLY FEEL LIKE VOMITING AFTER THE 3 NUGGETS.WTF SIA.
BACK TO VIVO AND UP TO THE CINEMA.
I DIDNT REPLY UR TICKLISH WRITINGS ON MY HAND IN THE CINEMA.
IMA TELL U NOW.
I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH TOO!
HOLDING UR HANDS EVEN WHILE WATCHING A SHOW IS HAPPINESS.
HENDERSON WAVES AFTER.
CABBED HOME WHILE B TOOK 188.
I HAD FUN AND I LOVE UR COMPANY BABY.
NTH GOES THIS WELL WITHOUT U.


IM SORRY I'VE BEEN SELFISH.
IM SORRY I DIDNT HEAR OR CARE ABOUT UR FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS.
IM SORRY I CRIED SO BAD IN FRNT OF U.
IDIDNT WNA SHOW U HOW I FELT,HOW MUCH PAIN IM SUFFERING WITHOUT U WITH ME.U THOUGHT I WAS NORMAL.CUS IM OUT WITH U.IPROMISED A DATE.AND ITS SUPPOSED TO BE A HAPPY THING.BUT I COULDNT HELP IT.
I NVR WANTED U TO GO.
HAVE FAITH IN ME PLS BABY.
I'VE NVR FAILED TO KEEP MY PROMISE.
AND THIS I PROMISE YOU.
ITS MEANT TO BE.
YOU AND ME.
I;'LL NEVER TAKE THE PENDANT OUT.
I'LL NVR FIND ANOTHER.
SAY IM STUPID SAY IM STUBBORN.
BUT I'VE USED BRAINS BEFORE AND GUYS STILL CHEAT ON ME.
THIS TYM,IM FOLLOWING MY HEART.
HOW IT BEATS AND TELLING ME YOU ARE THE ONE.
I LOVE HOW U ALWAYS SIT CLOSE TO ME AND HOLD MY HAND,HUG ME.
ILOVE HOW U ALWAYS SMILE AT ME.
ILOVE HOW I CAN BE MYSELF WITH U.
I LOVE HOW U CAN MAKE MAGIC HAPPEN.
I LOVE HOW U'LL NVR FAIL TO KISS ME GOODBYE EVERY TYM WE PARTED.
ILOVE HOW U ALWAYS BURY UR HEAD ON TO MY SHOULDERS.
I LOVE U EACH AND EVERYWAY.
ILOVE U FOR U.

THANK YOU FOR THE DAY DEAREST.
I LOVE YOU BABY.
I'VE NVR BEEN HAPPIER WITHOUT U.
STILL TEXTING ME TELLING ME U'RE HAPPY CUS U'RE EATING CHOCOLATES.
BUT HAPPIER CUS THEY'RE FROM ME :D
I FEEL SO LOVED.
THANK YOU FOR MAKING MY DAY.
IDONT WANT THE NIGHT TO EVER END.

LOVE,
NANA.

Labels: i'm addicted to u.everything about u.

I SWEAR I HATE THIS.
I WANT YOU BACK.
I WNA RUN BACK INTO UR ARMS SO BAD NOW.
every second the tym pass,im missing you more than before.
if i could buy time, i would.
if i had to start all over again,i'll still run to you.
if i had to reversetym, i'll go back to the very start and love you right.
if only i had a chance to stay,im willing to love you the right way.
if only you were right here with me,i'll bury myself into your arms.
every lil thing i do and say, i mean it with my heart.
if i was given a chance to be urs again,im will to exchange everything for it.

you were everything in my life.
everything that i had.
everything that i need.
i want to be strong to go on.
but im sorry i can't.
u were my strength.
you lifted me up when i was down.
u wanted my heart.
i gave it to u.
i dont understand b.
did u just waste exactly 3months of ur tym with me?
did u not feel love or love at all?
you think its any good for me?
you think this will even do me good?
im so sorry u're wrong.
u healed my unwanted pain fromthe past.
but why did u stabbed me so deep this time?
you never were just my friend you know that?
lil words and promises you made meant alot to me.
you promised to love me and to takecare of me forever.
where did that go?
you said i promise you and a promise is a promise.
i tried to break my promises.
but all i ever did do was to keep it.
i did it.
i didnt do alot for you baby.
i was there to love you.
all i ever did was to love you.
you think i care about money?
money is just paper.
i told u before.money cannot buy ur heart.
u gave me your heart.
i didnt buy it.i didnt steal it.
i dont wna be an option to you.
i wanted to be the one for you.
okay.ididnt listen to u.
yes.all i ever did was to make sure you were fine.
what if smthng happened to you?
i was worried.
thats all.
i dont buy u gifts often.
treating you food means im buying love?
no.
i do everything for u sincerly.
everything is from my heart.
i hope u do believe that.
and i know u know that.
if u were just flinging,you wouldnt stay with me till now.
you wouldn't care so much when i tell u i was sick and i almost blacked out.
you wouldn't still care or bother to reply my texts when i fought back.
you still love me. i know.
deep inside of you. you love me.
i'm not any happier without you cus you are the key to my happiness.
after all that happened or everything that u did.
i still love you.
i still care for you.
you are all i ever dreamed of.
my every puzzle to my heart.
those love songs you always sing to me.
those words that made up the lyrics meant you and me.
you ask me if i believed nothing but love lasts forever.
yes i believe. but not anymore.
without you, love doesnt exist.
without you,i wouldn't have strength to love.
without you, i'm so lost.
i dont believe you're not in my life anymore.
i cant afford to lose you and u know exactly howmuch u mean to me.
you just needed space right?
i'll give it to you.
why u had t leave me when i needed you the most?
u feel pain?
u feel miserable?
u miss me?
imnot giving up.
neither am i letting go.
how could u stay strong?
i cant.i cant bring myself to stay strong.
i know u're hurting too.
i want you back in my life.
i want you more then anything right now.

i miss you so much.
i love you baby.

lovealways.
Nana

Labels: where did the love go baby?

wished things weren't so crazy.
sorry.
i love u b.

why am i blogging again?
i'm seriously bored.
i'm not feeling well.
i wna go swimming.
im planning something sweet :D

my appetite has strunk greatly.
my moodswings are crazy.

i need to know what i should get for b.
my brain juice is running dry.
and baby wouldn't tell mewhat he wants.
i know that smthng he wants...but i cant afford one:(

okay bye.
i miss my bf.
I LOVEMY BF!
bye.
goodnight.
finally.

love,
Nana

am i annoying???
am i being a bad girlfriend?
somebody teach me how to love my man right.
its not what i think is right.
i know its not.
im sorry.

IM SORRY FOR BEING SO EMOTIONAL
IM SORRY FOR BEING SO POSSESIVE
IM SORRY BECAUSE I CAN NOT LIVE WITHOUT YOU
IM SORRY FOR THE DAMAGE I MADE
IM SORRY I HURT YOU SO DEEP
IM SORRY FOR GIVING YOU SLEEPLESS NIGHTS
IM SORRY FOR EACH AND EVERY FIGHT
IM SORRY FOR CAUSING YOU PAIN AND AGONY
IM SORRY FOR MY SELFISH LOVE
IM SORRY FOR NOT CARING ENOUGH
IM SORRY FOR MY RESTLESSNESS
IM SORRY I MADE YOU MAD
IM SORRY FOR THINKING OF YOU TOO MUCH
IM SORRY I ALWAYS MISS YOUR GENTLE TOUCH
IM SORRY FOR BEING SO MAD ABOUT YOU
IM SORRY FOR MY EVERY BLUE
IM SORRY IF I’VE BEEN IMMATURE
IM SORRY THAT IT CAN NEVER BE CURED
IM SORRY FOR BEING MYSELF
IM SORRY THAT I HAVE FAILED
IM SORRY AND SORRY AGAIN
IM SORRY OF BEING INSANE
BUT BELIEVE ME THAT I LOVE YOU
OR SHOULD I SAY SORRY FOR THAT TOO?


I LOVE YOU B.

hello earthlings.
sorry bout the previous posts.
my baby officially is mia.
i cannot seem to do anything either cus he's not home and his phone's dead.
so i decided to distract myself.
found cute and a lil NC16 stuffs.
but its damn funny.

i would if i could. stupid say no to piracy thing.lol.

i've finally found the solution and dont need to use toa cah soh!

stupid science question.

i'm quite sure the condom is REALLY safe now.

this is sick.

i didnt know there was such a pokemon.
hahahahaha!

SURE! c'mon in!

wtf.

her boobs are seriously big!!!!!!

itdoesnt seem like a boobjob or pushups.
every guy's fantasy right?

752pm.

damn.

where's my baby?
i have no friggin idea.

tym isstill dragging.

its 8.10 pm.

baby's still not responding to me.

i really dont know what to do anymore!

is he really that busy today too?

but he would leave me texts when he's THAT busy!

baby, u're killing me here.

not only im missing you,

i cnt contact u,

and im worried about you.

i've flooded your inbox,definately.

starhub have also.

no use i flood ur inbox more when u dont reply.

idk what else i could do to make sure u're allright.

im clear, u're not home.

when will u be?

when will u respond to me?

when will u finally call?

the thing is, i can't seemto not bother about you idiot.

i can't seem to give up asking if you're fine or not.

I CAN'T SEEM TO FRIGGIN IGNORE YOU!

save me will you?

call me.

and for the sake of me, have the habit to CHARGE YOUR FUCKING PHONE CAN?

I HATE YOUR PHONE!

BUT I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love,

Nana

b, where are you?
its alrdy been more than a day since i last heard from you.
where are you???
please get back to me asap can?
im really worried.
please.
i just wna make sure u're fine.
tell me u're reallytired and that ur phone died and u didnt charge it and u're sleeping at home.
please.
i need to know u're fine.
please.
respond to my texts.
please.
im reallly worried.
please.

baby, where are you?
one whole day u've gone missing.
no replies to my texts.
i cnt even get thru ur phone line.
its worrying b.
i really hope u'll get back to me soon.
i suppose you didnt charge your phone again right?
my god.
i miss you so much and i cnt even contact you.
this is bullshit!
its so frustrating!!!!
im running a temperature again :(
and im missing you like crazy!
not even a text today!
its killing me.
where are you syg?
i hope u'll charge ur phone tmrw.
when u get home or smthng.
i so dont wna disturb u as much as i culd but its a tym where i cannot not bother.
i know u've been busy :(
i cnt bring myself to sleep this way.
u'll use someone's phone to text me or call last tym.
i do hope u're sleeping at home and i hate ur fucking phone!
but I LOVE YOU SO!

I WANT MY IZZAT!!!
NOW!!!!!
grrrrrrrrr
Nana

hello earthlings!
im online again.
no. i should say, i'm blogging again.
i'm happy:D

in exactly one month's tym is baby's birthday :D

Labels: you are the only one.

hello hello helloooooooooooooooo!!!
I AM SO EFFING HAPPY TODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!
SO SO SO SO SO SO BLOODY HAPPY!!!!!

Shopping with SERENA darling.
woohoo!!
like finally got to see her!!!
walk @ orchard till sian sia.
orchard is sibei sian now.
fep's stuffs are fucking expensive now...
go shop also no use.wallet get burned instead.
walk here walk there end up @ fep.
walk summore end up @ hereen.
walk again backto lucky plaza.
wa. legs can die. super tired sia.
tdy rain summore. tou jialat.

shisha @ arab street later.
and oh my wish came true!!!
baby's plans got cancelled and he came down to find me:D:D:D
mygod... i seemed to havent seen him in forever.
i miss him so much!!!!!!
and i finallygot to touch him!
okay sound wrong but no i meant touch him.as in real him.
i didnt wna let go when i had the chance to hug him.
i miss the warm arms of his.
i miss his smell.
i miss everything.
so so so much.
he's right there, right in front of me!
i feel so happy.
nth makesme happier then being in his arms.
i finally understood the meaning of ABSENCE MAKES THE HEART FONDER.

okayyy...im heating up again.
im so feverish.
and im super tired.
idk how Serena can still go drinking.mygodd.

goodnight.
help me searh for the moon tonight.
when u find it, lemme know cus i wna jump over it :D
im gg to bed.
byeeeeeee :D
stay happy with me :D

You are the sun that lights up the sky
You've got the smile that makes everything right
You are my star That shines in the night
You are the one in my life!

I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!!!!

love
Nana

Labels: i will be yours to hold and to keep.ilu, now and forever

hello sweeties!
i'm happy today :D
so so happy.
i couldn't sleep well these nights.
in proper terms, i didnt sleep.
my eyes are swollen :(

i was frightened like seriously just now.
i almost blacked out.
i could only see 20% of my surrounding.
everything was super blur.
i couldn't even see the numbers on my phone.
the picture on my phone, i could only see smudgy colours.
idk what happened.its seriously freaky.
i was standing on the bus.
aircon was aboveme.i felt the cold air. it was freezing.
but i was perspiring!
like i've just took a marathorn.that kind of dripping wet sweat.
my head,hands and knees were super weak.
i couldn't move.every step i took was shaky.dizzy.
i couldn't breathe.
i couldn't talk properly.
idk what went wrong.
what made it worse,cramps.
i sat for an hour or so at interchange for mummy to come to my rescue.
baby got worried.
im sorry. i didnt want to worry u but u were the only one i tell everything to.

wna watch couple retreat with baby :D
next week. i hope he can find one day for me :(
im saving money to bring him out :D
he had been busy.
need to release stress.MY way this tym baby.not yours :P
FIND TYM FOR ME!!!
im planning a day alrdy!!
dont care hor. must okay!!!
bought chocolates for you cus idk what i culd buy!!!
i wnabuy smthng u can wear.
smthng u can keep instead of chocolates.
whatever.
i've bought chocolates too :D
happy drug.

okay i just wanna say I MISS YOU FUCKING MUCH BABY!!
and no matter what happens, i'll ALWAYS love you.
i'll ALWAYS be there for you.
muacksx!!!

I LOVE YOU MD. IZZAT!!!

love,
Nana

Labels: the only one i belong to., you're still the one i run to

i need to talk.
i need you.
im being unreasonable because i care.
because i needed to understand what's gg on in ur life right now.
i wna be understanding.
i dont wna be demanding.
but u'll haveto communicate with me to lemme know the pain u're gg thru.the stress u're facing.
because baby, i'm not there.
i want to be there.
im angry that im not there for u.
what happened to us baby?
it was just one week.
u know how much u mean to me.
u know how much i love you.
u know that.
u know my moodswings.
i was just upset about that promise.
but i dont want things to come to this stage.
i know we both dont want this.
we both want to be in each others arms.
i need to understand whats gg on in ur life first b.
im finding faults at every lil thing cus i want ur attention.
i admit. i want ur attention.
because idk whats causing u the stress,i' somehow stress u too.
im at fault.
im to blame.
itsmiscommunication baby.
andits just because im missing you.

I don't need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
I've always needed something
But I've got all I want
When it comes to loving you
You're my only reason
You're my only truth
You're the hope that moves me
To courage again
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And it's so amazing cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now cause you've brought me too far
i miss you.
i need to talk to you.
i love you.
im sorry.

i want to mean so much more to you.
i want to be everything for you.
you gave me your heart and i gave mine.
till now i know the reason we're always fighting.
cus of trust.
i dont trust u enuf.
im afraid of losing you.
i almost lost u once.
im not gna let that happen again.
u've got to help me.
i need you.
only you to be by my side.
i make promises to you and i promise i'll keep it.
i hope u'll do so too.
all im asking of you is to love me.
love me with ur whole heart.
knowing i'll be there.
ALWAYS.

I LOVE YOU.
i hope ur love for me would nvr die.

i'll reason out my thoughts and be strong to love you.
to trust you.
to care for you.
gimme tym.
along the way things will get in the way.
but i hope u'll bare with it.
tolerate my nonsense.
and continue to love me.

i'm sorry.
i know u understand cus u know.
ilove you.
i miss you.
goodnight.

love,
Nana

hello earthlings.
i've been rather restless and shagged since holidays started.
its irritating.
no movements,no friends,no anything.
except my tv, stove and ciggrettes to keep me company.

managed to catch paranormal activity with mom just now.
cus waiting for baby is fucking diffcult.
he's so fucking busy and has obviously no tym for me.
yes, i was supposed to watch it with him but.....

idk if its because im used to seeing baby everyday or smthng.
its killing me.
i really miss him.
its driving me crazy.
seriously.
idk when will i even get to see him.
its been a god damn week alrdy.
i cant even book him :(
im trying to be strong.
but i still feel lost.
i feel empty without him.
:(
just one text a day im alrdy happy to know he still cares.
it really will go crazy.
i am alrdy gg crazy.
plus the severe pms moodswings....
mati sudah.

i love baby...

love,
nana