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"she says she's no good with words,but im worse.
barely stuttered out a joke of romance stucked to my tongue
weighed down with words,too over dramatic
tonight its it can't get much more
no one should ever feel im two quarters and a heart down
and i don't want to forget how your voice sounds
these words are all i have,so i'll write...."


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Tuesday, April 28, 2009



watched 17 again with nya after my appointment.
its so hilarious luh!
and damn touching.
its showing on screen in the grand cathay!

the lightings were like so nice.
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HAIRDRESSING is the art of arranging the hair or otherwise modifying its natural state. Closely related to headgear, hairdressing has been an im portant part of the dress of both men and women since antiquity and, like dress, serves a number of functions.Almost all societies have found it necessary to cut or confine the hair in order to keep it out of the way. They further arranged their hair to fulfill man's basic desire for personal adornment, which may vary in form from the ornately curled, blond wigs of Roman matrons to the sleek shin gled heads of flappers in the 1920's. One ex tremely important function of hair styling, especially in traditional preindustrial societies, is to indicate status. Primitive men, for example, fastened bones, feathers, and other objects in their hair to impress the lowly and frighten the enemy with their rank and prowess. Noble rank among the ancient Gauls was indicated by long hair, which Caesar made them cut off as a sign of sub mission when he conquered them. The occupa tional associations of hair are exemplified by the gray wig of a British barrister and the lacquered, black wig of a Japanese geisha.



which my hair looks somthing alike now.
i have elbony princess black hair!!!!!
my hair's black! ITS BLACK! ITS BLACK!!!
my hair's like artificial u noe. tha knid of black like painted on like that.
damn wierd.
okay, im done whinning.
its wierd for now but im gna get used to it. for once i guess people shuldnt ask me where im from anymore wuld they?
i look total asian.
oh right, did i mention i had bangs?
yup, i have a doll's hair!
so fake lor.
will upload pictures to let u all laugh at some other day allrite?
and damn i missed ballet today. i totally forgot!
i still told Red that i culd make it for today's appointment.
max's quite cute though.*o0ps,u didnt hear it from me*
skip this part people,im just venting my anger.
im so sick of you luh! every call u call is like an interrogation.
man i dont have to report every thing to you must i?
where i was and what im doing. i mean call me and get to the point!
it wasnt just one tym. like i dont have a freedom in speech.
must u lyk want everything to go your way?
look, this is reality darling.not everything goes your way.
u're the one calling me out of the blue and then start interrogating me.
im not a prisoner! i dont suppose i have to answer every single thing i did should i?
you're not my mom.
i mean what the hell is wrong with u?
yar right u're only remembering me when u face a problem.
and why the fuck am i so stupid to always be there for you when i knew i was just a piece of paper? use it when when u need it and throw it when u're done using it?
u only calls me when ur new friends are not with u.when ur sad and lonely.
i dont't have the friggin' tym to entertain someone who only remembers me when you want to.
hello? im not your dog!i have a life like u do!
i don't have the need to explain everything to you just so because u suddenly remember me.
its not that i dont wna be there for you or anything but the fact that im always there for you only so when u remember dear old steph.
thanks for fucking remembering me!
i dont care if u're of higher study standards or whatever higher shit that is,
im of a higher class then u. at least i treat humans like humans.
so do i treat a dog like a human. i dont expect a dog to do what i asks. its supposed to b a friend. not a piece of shit.like how u wuld treat a dog.
im telling u, im changing. im not the the kind who will withstand all ur nonsence any longer. i've given you too much face.
im human after all.just so you know, i dont really care about us anymore.cus clearly enough, u're using me.
i know we're most humans and we make mistakes, but this FYI is no mistake. u treat, okay,maybe only me like shit. oh no. not me. i culd name a few that is.maybe im just too nice to u.u're stepping all over me. wait lor. one day u'll get it AGAIN.
F.Y.I, so what f ur studies are like terrific? u bloody dun have brains.
sorry.it dont apply to people reading or maybe that one but.
anyways, im done here.
gd night earthlings!
with love.




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Tuesday, April 28, 2009




Sunday, April 26, 2009



my feets are in serious pain!
1 hour of pointe was nothing but pointe then soft shoes and pointe was the terror. i think i only manages to do the firt bit of kurus and then a lil here and there.
3hours of ballet.
intermediate was like only 6 people. i know right. WTH?
and i still cant do proper piroettes with my soft pointes.
actually, its not that soft after all.
what a mess.

i got a rude awakening by calls and texts early in the morning.
first few were texts some asking where i bought my shoes from and all then was texts from old friends telling me they're working where where where now and ask me go find them if im free.
okayyy but HELLO! im still sleeping!
then there was calls.
damn frusterating luh!
southern star co. called me and i was like in a sleepy tone.
"hello?"
"hi stepharina, im...(i didnt get his name) from southern star co."
"HUH? FROM WHERE?"
"southern star co.channel 6 tv programmes?"
"oh... erm.. hi.."
"yes.hi....(he said smthng else which i didnt know what)... will it be okay if we coloured your hair black?"
"dye?"
"yes."
"okay"
"okay? great. then would it be okay if we cut your hair?"
"cut?"
"yes. cut your fringe. as in bangs"
"okay"
"great so i'll arrange with...(i don't know who) and get back to you again allright?"
"okay"
"thank you bye bye!"

i went back to sleep.
every sentence i replied was in one word and was damn rude.
and i didnt get most of what he said anyways.
anyways the girl RED(i got her name now) called me ard 2 smthng again to ask me to cfm wif her dates and all.
and GREAT!*sulks* im gna have black hair with bangs! and im do gna look like a doll.
and thanks for not telling me this earlier. i shuld have known so i dun hve to waste $16 to cut my hair just one week earlier.i thought they wanted me to wear a wigggg???

the job agency kept calling me also luh. super irritating. he wants me to work tmrw which i rejected cus it was the only day i culd rest. im so not going for ballet tmrw anyways.my feets are killing me.

anyway, i got up at 12 after all that gala.
the worst thing ever was to drag myself out of bed in the day.
(im not gna disagree that im becuming a vampire)

and here i am wide awake despite all that dancing and tiredness seemed to have gone away in the night.
and im trying to break my soft pointes while chewing on sweets.
i enjoying the air con man!
the heat totally killed me. and im melting. i've got heat rash now. and its friggin irritating and itchy!
thank god for some brilliant invention of something called calamine lotion.

till then loves!
will blog again idk when see my mood luh:P
love,
nana



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Sunday, April 26, 2009




Thursday, April 23, 2009



OMGGGGG!! this bottle costs $588!
and its just because its nice to see. as iin the bottle's cute.
but it's just vodlka.
normal ordinary 40% alc. vodlka!
i can get a bottle of vodlka for $70 instead.
just cus it'a a "private collection".

this is the other collection.
this is $288.
still what the HELL?

went to bakerzin at tampines 1 for dineer today. i tried their cuppy cakes.
sial uh! i saw the picture the resberry big big one lor! but they give me one so super duper effing small lh! oh wells nvm.
this is the Acup one. i know right, it sound super wrong but...
ima try their other ones. their cakes melts in ur mouth!

i had pizza. its different from pizza hut. and those ordinary pizzas. this one's base is flaky. makes u feel lyk ur actually eating a biscuit instead.

they call this terriyaki chicken rice.
i have to say its way better then most japanese restaurant.
strawberry italian soda.

corn soup.
this is differnt. its vry fragrant. and sweet.


rehersal today was a total waste of tym.
but u know, who cares?
i get $60 just to be there!
they only need my signature on the attendance form.
i know right wth.
i hope they plan the tym properly tmrw.
im so sick of doing the dance and counting as if im the dance instructor.
i need to dance!!!!
ballet's killing me though.
i cant do piroettes in my stupid soft pointes.
i feel lk im wearing pointes and its like super hard.
how am i suppose to pass intermediate if i cannot turn nicely?
i can do posses though =D

oh man! i need to work work work!
gdnite earthlings!
love,
nana



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Thursday, April 23, 2009




Monday, April 20, 2009

crossing over to the dark side.

im allergic to either staying awake or going to sleep.
im like a vampire now.
im lyk allergic to the sun.
i cant seem to keep my eyes open in the day instead im wide awake in the night!
if i sleep, i never wished i had to get up.
but if i get up, i never seem to be able to sleep.
despite waking up at 6 daily for the past 10 years, i don't seem to have a body clock.
i wun wake up atomatically.
die luh. im really like a vamp.



with love from a vampire.



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Monday, April 20, 2009








GO TAMPINES 1 DER SPORTS LINK!
GOT 10% DISCOUNT ON NIKE ITEMA AND 20% ON ADDIDAS!!! =D



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Monday, April 20, 2009




Sunday, April 19, 2009



omfg! am i supposed to work or not tmrw???
stupid people!!
dun work baik uh dun work.
my muscles are aching like fuck.
thank god i didnt go for ballet today.
first tym i pontang ballet which my mom was like 'okay don't go lor'
ballet and chatroomchicks rehersals are killing me!
but too bad i love it!
i don't think i'll have to wait till i get into lasalle to lose weight.
i might just lose weight but the end of this month.

i think i just might be free tmrw!
work place nobody call. so i guess i dun hve to go.
no ballet tmrw too!!
great=(

oh wells. im off to fb again.
loves<3

nana



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Sunday, April 19, 2009




Thursday, April 16, 2009



I'M SINGAPOREAN!!!!!
don't i look SINGAPOREAN?
does singaorean have a certain kind of look i don't have?

i've been getting these quotes from random people every where!
"hello, how are you..... where are u from?"
"hi, im fine thank you.how are you? er.. im from singapore?"
"singapore? u look philipina!"/"singapore? u don't look singaorean!"
a few tyms in orchard,amoy st,bugis area. i understand uh, orchard got alot of tourists but alot of tyms in TAMPINES also!

i dun know if im supposed to feel honoured or not to.
thanks uhh!

my god my whole body's aching lyk crazy!
my muscles are vry sour(sore)!!!
the rehersals are gna drive me crazy.
but its super fun. but uh, so high school musical!

this is lyk first dance i rplaced C.
still messy though. just learn ma.. lol.
spot mee! im wearing my favourite colour, and the tallest in this video=D

oh wells im gna sleep. got rehersals tmrw=D enjoy the video.
gd night babies!
love,
nana



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Thursday, April 16, 2009




Wednesday, April 15, 2009




hello loves!
i hvent been online for quite some tym alrdy.
been dancing, watching tv. definately not sleeping!
i've lost my favourite past tym.
no tym for my bed =(

this is Leah Howard. she's the judge of Australia's so you think you can dance.
Ainy talked me into going for this dance audition at o school. met Min li and her bf, Lester there. everyone was so jazz and hip hoppy except me. they were lyk looking for 10 over dancers for this tv programme chat room chicks. Leah is lyk damn good luh.
well, i tookthis picture today thought the audition's on monday.
haha. yes, i got selected by Leah herself for me to be one of the girl's dance doubles. which in other words mean,im gna play her role in the dance competition while she do the acting part.
if u get what i meant good. if u don't its fine. cus i don't at first too.
this tv programme is just starting. not on air but havent flimed yet so when it gna come on air i'll say okayy, but dun put hopes that it'll be this yr.
right, so im lyk going down to o school for dance rehersals.
Leah s lyk a really great person. she's always so happy go lucky. and i've recieved many hugs from her though i just got to know her. she see me and hug me mcm im her old friend and that she hvent seen me for a long tym. she's so huggable. like ti lum(pillow) liddat.


omg! i miss Serena!!!!
I effin' iss her luh!!!
noone to make me high ler.
it sound wrong but.. she's the one who always lights up my dayy!
anyways, i'll post another day again. im super tired!
im doing intervals of ballet and that hsm thingy.
good night earthlings!
love,
nana <3





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Wednesday, April 15, 2009




Saturday, April 11, 2009



hello babies!
im in an extremely good mood today!
but the stupidest thing i did was to have an exceptionally too much FRUITS!
i mean, yes, fruits are good but uh,i very seldom eat fruits or put it this way other then nanas(pineapple) and strawberries, i DON'T touch fruits!

Ms Pang gave us wrong info to come for intermediate training class today at 1515hrs,however, she had girls taking grade exams next week and so... jialat lor. we alrdy cleared grades and so dun see the need to stay for that class.
Liz and i walked to tampines 1 for aunty anne's.
damnit lor! with tampines 1 now uh, im so gna die! there is SECRET RECIPIE, CARL'S JR, AUNTY ANNE'S and the worst SUBWAYYYYYYY!!!
omfg! see tell me will die anot luh!
back to what i was saying, er, we walked to north cc just cus Liz thought Fedrick was there. but he ended up telling us he was at 201 which i culd walk over to but i had a class at 1645hrs so cannot lor. Liz wanted her papaya which i seriously dunno why people like that particular fruit that makes ur boobs big. its disgusting uh.mushy mushy der.
oh wells nvm. aniways, we had a choice of 3 packets of cut fruits for $5.
so we bought Liz's papaya,rambutans and kiwis.
and that is alot! for 2 people to eat that is friggin' alot!
but we finished,suprisingly with a heavy stomach after.
Liz had a dinner date so she left me with my other ballet sisters and left.
after ballet went home with tia and nya.
and guess what we had after dinner?

FRUITS!!!!
wahlao eh i tell u. damn jia lat lor cus...
a lil too much FRUITS= visiting of the toliet a lil too much too!!!

haiyayayayayayayayaya!!!
everybody's telling me that there are typical job offers now when i found one!
kao eh.just my luck!
this is a random picture i took on my 1 hr bus ride back home after work. hahaha!i look like a puppy!

see the car? damn jia lat lor kena. liddat only see some serious dents in the front but the bloody side mirror's like hanging there. its broken and idk what kind of idiot culd drive a car without his side mirrors and even so he culd have took the bloody mirror away then let it hang. stupid right?oh wells, he look like an ass though.



i didnt do this on purpose! i just spilled my nail polish. stupid me.
i was like frantically searching for my cotton buds to remove this. but damn nice uh. my nail polish bottle spun and it create a lovely circle while pouring the liquid out.
arghhh.. gotta sleep ler.
working tmrw.
goody nite =D
love,
nana



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Saturday, April 11, 2009




Wednesday, April 8, 2009






man!i missed SYF today. i meant watching and helping malay dance.
but nvm. darling went and she took these pictures.
i think this is the only SYF costume that is so plain. we had alot of hair "gears" the past few yrs and alot of layers of cloth.but this yr's mcm ez to breathe.hahaha.
whatever eh aku.
im so not used to waking early noww.
so idiotic luh.
weeks ago,was people sleep,i wake up.
people wake up, i sleep.
now is people wake up i also wake up.wth!!!
i need to spend more tym with my bedddd!!!
but work's fun!
strange to see me say smthng like this,i know right.
but its true!!!
havent been really eating these days.
work then go home sleep.
either eat breakfast then skip dinner and/or lunch.
hungry nvr eat till not hungry alrdy.
iluma opened alrdy! and of all people,i hae yet to go!
damnit!
tampines 1's opening tmrw and i suppose i suld have the energy to walk.
now aku mcm jet lack.
right!i have to stop =(
have work tmrw morning.
havent take any pictures yet and havent gone shopping since Serena.
damn. i miss her alrdy!and her gna get stuck to 'ayo technology'.cus i've been singing that song every second she keep quiet.hahahaha!!!
toodles darlings!
love,
nana<3



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Wednesday, April 08, 2009








hello loves!
im breaking rules to come online at this hour.
im super tired and i need my bed.
i came online just cus i needed to set up and install my networks thingy on my new laptop.

to sabri aka eddie: im working. i've started working. yes IM WORKING!!!!!!
that's the reason why i hvent the tym to come online.
thank god u didn't spam my blog. but u spamed facebook! no diference!

i've been working at isetan tampines and hotel holiday in parkview bizness ctr.
isetan's blackrasins(the one selling clay flower earrings,sunglasses etc) is having 15% promotion!
support me uh! but uh,the stuffs are not vry ex but uh not vry cheap either luh.(hehehe.)
hotel's job is like okayy,have to wear uniform and have to rmb alot of passwords!
allah,but overall its fine.

omg! i wna watch fast and the furious 4! and 17 again!
damn. i oso want a leather jacket!
like oh so my god! damnit!

time check: 0030hrs!
oh what the hell. i needa sleep!working morning tmrw.CORRECTION! that wuld be later=(
right!im working in the morning on friday,sunday and monday at isetan.
not working there tmrw,oh nono today and tmrw.

takecare earthlings!
love,
nana StephiieeNa



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Wednesday, April 08, 2009




Saturday, April 4, 2009



I LOVE BALLET!!!

i woke up like a bit earlier then usual. erm.... 1150am*thats early!!!*
i lazed in bed till 12 smthng. and then bathed.
went to holiday inn parkview and tried uniform.
tt is, i got a business and call centre job doing idk what.tell u what once i start.
aunty judy had trouble finding a suitable uniform for me. she was climbing up and down to find the uniforms..jialat.
i went and try the uniform after she finally found one.
aunty judy was like:" u're tall and thin.but u've got broad shoulders."
thin? yar right.
went to granny's hus then to ballet!!!
advance grade's ballet is alot of fun!

yesterday:
met Joel ytd.


we didnt know where to go so we took a bus and went ard changi.


these picturess were taken when we got suspended from the bus 9 ride cus it was entering a restricted area.


sial damn hot siol!!!!






i don't think he know i took this picture. but cant realli see him. angle a bit off.




gna play games ler!
ciao!
love,
Nana StephiieeNa




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Saturday, April 04, 2009




Thursday, April 2, 2009





out with Serena today.
supposed to go to the skateboarding park but we lost our way.
supposed to draw,but were in a shopping mood.
we ended up somewhere on the stairs outside Nee Ann City and walked to FarEast.
and thank god i fulfilled my cravings!
had subway at The Heeren!!!
but what's worse, SUBWAY DON'T ACCEPT NETS ANYMORE!!!
i know right, What the HELL?!?!?!
and of course i fulfilled my other craving--- fried mars bars!!!!
okayy done for today. diet tmrw. temptations...
the construction site had some interesting graphic arts.


sorry bout the random pictures^there are more thoughXP
had dinner with Tia and Nya at East Coast Park.



i only tou pai this one picture of Serena but i think she took more candid pictures of me in her camera....
this is super super duper random. as in the pink extention.

our legs got tired after awhile so all the cam whoring pictures were taken when we got to rest. and its all thanks to out heels.
thats not my fingers!!!


And yes that are my fingers! ahahahaha.
oh btw, the rest of this post are pictures so if u wna see then scroll, if not then click the red X at the top right hand cornner of this screen kayy?






































my feets are killing me! but im sastified! and sorry for all the pictures up here. its what 101% of boring teeangers do!

arrivederci!

love,nana



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Thursday, April 02, 2009