heelo world!
i'm super duper duper happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i miss baby so effin much!
somehow i miss him so much when i actually saw him on saturday already.
like usual two days.
but smthng seemed to be missing.
thank god i managed to go out with baby:D
im so over the moon now!!!
but then mood dropped the moment i lost sight of baby when i went home :(
idk when i'll see baby again.
no school= not gna see baby everyday.
i think i'll die sia during the hols.

cooked tasteless rice for baby.which he somehow finished it.
i know wtf. sorry b.
reli no skill in rice. rice is not my thing.
thank you baby for accompanying me shoe shopping.
i know its fucking boring for a guy to go shopping with his girlfriend.
really appreciate u taking time to do all this with me :D
I LOVE YOU BABY!!
its not enough man!!
tym with u is not enuf.
even though its the whole day sia.
want u to hug me like u did just now more!
better still to sleep everynight.
haha.

im tired alrdy.
goodnight!!!
with all my heart,I LOVE BOYFRIEND!!!!
mwahhhhhhhhh!

love,
Nana

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i'm singing love songs!
hello world!
i've finished the fucking gamelan.
FINALLY!!!!
am talking to my baby now:D
am gg out with him later!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
woohoo. im fucking high now.

wear what?
i very gan chiong lehh.
i miss baby so much!!!!
wake up earlycook for baby later:D
okay. go sleep now.
go cck later and go buy shoes!!
go watch show.
yes!!
finally!!!
i getto spend real time with baby.

I LOVE IZZAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love,
Nana <3

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im so stucked with gamelan.
i didnt watch a damn show for it!
what am i suppose to write?!?!?!
fuck it luh. ima try and crap thru it.

baby's still moody.
hate the after effect.
he has no mood to talk to me.and its wierd.
i hope he recovers faster.
at least he'll be back joking with me instead.
i rather throw lil tempers at him cus he loves to joke with me and then we'll just be fine then he having no mood to tallk to me.

i miss his laughter.
i miss his smile.
seeing him this way i somehow see and know i might be the cause of it.
having me ard is irritating.
i know.
but idk why. i just wna care so much for him.
it irritates.
i just hope baby's not angry.

baby,whatever it is,
i still want u to know that i love u.
i'd do all this because i love you.
i dont wna irritate u any further.
maybe its just me.
i care to the standard i'll ask u over and over again just to make sure u're really allright.
i'm sorry:'(
i dont wna be the cause of ur anger.
imnot supposed to give u more stress.
but i guess i am.
i'm sorry.

I LOVE YOU B.

love,
Nana

hello sugars!

im fucking sick of doing gamelan.
ima copy and paste every damn shit the qns asks for.
past week was a fucking terror!!!
exams sucks. seriously. big tym.

went for final fitting for my bride's maid dress yesterday.
bloody hell! apparently, i had to hold the dress on to me while i walk out of the changing room to show the lady there and my cousin.
5months ago, i went to choose the dress and try.
they actually altered the dress to fit me alrdy. and now, the dress was so sloppy!
the back is actually transparent laced. which had to be fitted to your body to show the design.
it was like a loose halter dress yesterday!
they re-mesured and re-altered.
troublesome much.
it was 2 and a half inches loose.
i totally couldnt let go.if not, freeshow.
hahaha.
i can't wait for saturday!!
i can't wait for the wedding!!!
i have to look for flat shoesfor the wedding. and nice ones.
tell me where can find. suitable for wearing evening gowns liddat one.

baby's sick :'(
i suppose he caught a virus that was spreading amongst the foundation students.
and he was running a temperature.
restless and moody. i know.and i understand.
hopefully he's recovering.
i just saw him yesterday when i went down to cck.
but i miss him alrdy.
yeay!! ima go out with him on tuesday!!! :D
not meeting tmrw, i'll miss him another day more :(
i love him.
i'll do anything for him.im serious.
if he's hungry, i'll cook.
if he's bored, i'll entertain.
if he's lonely,i'll keep him company.
if he's lost, i'll find a way for him.
if he's sad,i'll be there for him.
if he's happy, i'll be too.
if he wants something, i'll try to get it for him.even if its not within my means.
if he'd prefers me dead, i'll shall be.
there's noone else i'd love as much as i love him.
i'll take a 4 hour journey to meet you if there was one.
even if it means to catch a glimpse of u for 5 minutes, i would.
if i ever made u feel that i didn't care, i'm sorry.
but i hope u'll know i care.more than anything else.
if i ever made u feel second best,
boy, im sorry i was blind.
just lemme reasure you, that you can count on me.
that i'll always be around.
because i love you, i'll be right by your side.
to be your light, to be your guide.
because you live and breathe.
because you made me believe in myself when nobody else can help.

baby, you're love has given me wings to fly.
but i don't want to if its without you by my side.
i wanna fly looking in your eyes.
u brought colours to my life.
it will never be as beautiful if you didn't come into my life.
it will never look the same if i was someone else's girl.
i'll never know what true love is.
i've been played. and i know u wont.
even if it sounds silly, i'd wait till the day i'm lawfully yours.
nothing is gna stop this love baby.
u said u won't leave, i hope you'll stay.
u said u love me, i hope you really do.
u said u're gna marry me, i hope it'll come true.
i'd do anything willingly,to put a smile on ur face.
if that was the only thing i could do, i would.

i love you baby dear!

i love you.imy.goodnight.

love,
Nana

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YESSSS UH!
finally!
my nightmare is gone!!!
its over!!
now i dont hve to stress for tym and all the nonsence business presentation shit.
cus i know,
business... fail.
history... fail.
gamelan...fail.
cb luh!
fucking arts world's people have fucking diffcult names to remember.
stressed up about business that i didnt touch a single shit on history. and as expected, fail.
gamelan was a fucking terror. thanks to the fucking teacher who is fuckingly unreasonable and totally unfair.
no need further elborate. fail.
thank god for my attendance. hopefully can pass this year.
this sem is a slap across my face sia.
start of school nia and im slacking away.
knn. need to get my results man.
now i have tym for bf.
no. im always with baby.
thank god i've got him to pull me thru my weaknesses and see me thru my strength :D
fuck it.assesment is OVER!


baby's gna get sick :(
now holiday i dunnoe how i could take care of him sia.
i wont possibly see him everyday :(
stupid ben says guys all anyhow one but can take care of himself.
thats exactly the point.
guys anyhow one. thats why we'll worry stupid.
i hope he'll be fine. he was a lil warm just now.
baby seemed to have changed.
changed in status.
from a boyfriend to a husband :D
i feel so loved man!
i feel like his wife now instead of his girlfriend.
im so loving this life of mine now.
im so happy!!!!!!!!!
i love my baby!!!

ima sleep alrdy.
Arif was awesome today :D
Faris wasn't.
but damn funny:D

okayy..
goodnight sweets!!
I LOVE BABY!!!

love,
Nana

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and you think it doesn't hurt me to be calling me by those terms?
like you said we are close friends,shouldn't close friends not use that term more?
what is it you're trying to announce on facebook by calling me a slut?
i may be open and all, but you dont have to say all these too.
it hurts you that i don'tcare?
mygod. you're exams just ended.
but F.Y.I, mine just started.
i dont even have the fucking tym to study.
i'm online cus i'm rushing journals and essays.
the only moment i manage to get away from my work i get comments like that.
maybe youdont feel offended cus you do it all the time.
but hey, im tired okay. and i dont expect to be called all that allright?

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Hello sugars!
i'm back.
i'm super stressed now.
assesment is next week :(
last minute essays not done yet.
bad week.
things happened.


it had been raining like nobody's business these days.
me likey the rain. but its like an awesome weather to sleep so its kinda not helping.
falling asleep in lectures is the worst thing ever.u'll be totally blanked for the certain topic.


did bloody cip today.
just for the hours.
Dex and i actually only take popcorn eat and and talk nia.
nvr really do anything except giving out the feedback form.

the one thing that should reallt come to an end is the quarels with baby.

its giving us both a hard time.

we both knows what we really mean to each other but.. some things just couldn't get out of the way.

and we're affected by the people around us.

things got really bad on monday.

but i'm glad our love was strong enough to stay.
and so it seems,i dont wna let go.

i love him more than anything else.

he's the someone i couldn't bring myself to ignore or get angry with or give up on.
he's not like the rest.i came to realise how specialhe really is.

i realised how much i mean to him also.

i would seriously be lost if i lost him.

and im just so playful :D

only he could stand my nonsence.

i snapped a few pictures on that particular raining day where baby managed to catch 3 hours of sleep when i didnt.

i'm in love with him.

and i dont care what happens.

i'm sorry for whatever that happened recently syg.

im glad things got better cus right now,

everything fall into place better than i expected.

i so needa do my research for the essay.

okay bye.

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND!! :D

love,

NANA

im fucking tired sia these days.
like i've overworked and im so shagged now.
my muscles are aching and killing me.
cannot even get out of bed.

my life's fking boring this week,
only fun with baby ard ;P
only thing is we have to stop arguing.
im disappointed after i heard him say his ex is contacting him and all.
to be honest, i feel super lousy after he says she's the most understanding girl he've met.
and that she wants him back now and all that fuck shit.
i have to learn how to be more understanding and not that demanding.
i know i want to. im trying to. but its like diffcult in a way and its like imso useless.
i swear its hurting me inside. but it seemed he cnt do anything also.
i feel like im not good enough for him and that i want him to know how i feel.
but its kinda useless and all cus its probably my personality.
i know i can nvr be like her.i wont understand to that extend.
i love differently.
im not her.i wont be her.
i dont have tym to spend with him.
he needs his own tym too.and im not giving it to him cus i want tym with him.
its frustrating.
but i do hope he understands what im gg thru and knows that im learning to and trying to understand himand adjust to fit into his arms.
and yes. its irritating and frustrating and annoying for a girl to hear her bf say that girl is hot. i want them for awhile can?
dont you understand how it feels like.
i know i should feel sensetive cus im alrdy urs but the fact that this lowers down a girls mood and will be finding ways and questioning herself like where does she not sastify you? what is it that that girl have and that i dont?
i feel like shit.
if u ever understand how a girl feels. you maybe joking and all but then again. she'll change for u because you mean the world to her. she just wants to be who u want her to be.

you should know better baby.
i believe i'll stay by ur side.

exams are comming and i havent done a single shit.
i only know what nac stands for. knn.
i need to study. tell me how to study leh.
fuck it luh. business. nabei.
i still have master cv to do.
cb.my history of dancing is like 4 long pages alrddy can?!?!?
still need jobs and all.cb.

u know what, im gg to bed.
i shall blog again later.
im aching and super tired.
im so gna sleep in :D

i love baby.
imy alrdy.

love,
Nana

Hello sugars!
performance project is over..
its partially a good and really bad thing.
its good cus wewouldnt have to continue this crazy rehersals.
its really bad cus i would be short of a class with baby :(

was the Da:ns festival and we had to watch shows in esplanade.
after dance rehersals.
the shows were like 8pm and we were all fucking tired.
i slept thru dunas. seriously, its not that they're not good or boring. they are spectecular!
but i was really tired. i totally K.Oed.
but i stayed awake for Paloma's.
my god! they are supersuper super awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want their legs man!!


i've over spent this week.
gg for dinners at plces like thai express isnt doing me any justice.
money just waes good buy quick enuf.
buying ciggrettes...er.. dont think i need to say.

speaking about ciggrettes,
my mom actually found out i smoke and blah blah blah long story..
i got scolded early in the morning..
blah blah blah...
now okay alrdy :D

Lost Foundation was a sucess.
but sadly,we only managed to performform for one show.
the sky was being a bitch and it started raining so heavilywhen it was almost performance tym last night.
we were all heavily maked up, everything was ready to go...
but..thank the sky, everything got cancelled.
but.. it was great too!
we had an early post production partaye!
Nicole cabbed to Khairul's with baby and me.
share cab cheaper.
nothing to say...
except, it was boring but totally AWESOME!!
cus baby was there!! and so with me :D
cabbed home at 3 smthng.

wrong shoes,i wore slippers, baby held me tight so i wont fall :D
got bored, baby played with me so i wont be :D
baby had been showering me with alot of love recently.
he'll hold my hand where ever we went.
he'll keep apologising for things that he did wrong.
he'll dedicate a song thru a loud hailer in the middle of the theatre just for me.
he's been doing everything i dont expect from a guy.
he pampers me too much.
I LOVE IZZAT SO MUCH!!!!
i wna marry him!!!


enuf said...
pictures below.
i didnt know Dex took this picture.
anyways.
baby look super cool!

Tett...

The lil school dancers....

And then came Halloween.
the good..

and the evil...

i do look like a vampire....

Da Jie has alot of expressions.

and she was supposed to be the innocent one. lol.

and omg. im glowing..what a effect for my character sia.

the other one who became a vampire after he took the other set of fangs.

the Alfa ah lian, the innocent boy boy and the beta ah lian.

and then there was the Gangsta rapper..

my one and only love <3stretching much.

sorry its kinda zoomed in.so its blurr..

the extra in front is really extra.

mr salesman and Wyane's omg.so bloody act cute.

Halloween was awesome man!

spending tym with baby was even more!!

i cnt wait for the tym to pass!!!

i wna see baby tmrw!

i miss him so much!!

like right after he got me into a cab :(

i wished i had more tym with him.

another fucking 9 hours!

shit!

no mind no mind.

im gna call my baby now!

byee sugars!

my life is wonderful!!!

my like is so fucking beautiful!!

love,

Nana

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