hello.
i've been ignoring this space for the longest time.
and no,i have not killed myself in anyways.
i've been busy to even come online.
things had been going well for baby and me..
well, technically he've always been my baby and still is.
and technically,back tgt.
had been flying on cloud nine since xy's party.
well,despite the fact that some idiots trys so hard to ruin alot of things.
im glad baby trusts me.
and yes,we both could feel and we both know we were fated to meet and to be tgt.
i feel the love he gives me now.
i only kesian dia for all the gigs and jamming sessions he had to go thru these days.
all i need to know and i do know,and so does he,is that he lovesme. so do i =D

i wna sleep and need to sleep alrdy.
im falling sick.
NOT good!
show's on friday!!!
eeyer!
okayyy...need water and need topractise the fucking line.

im in love with baby!
whats new.hahaha.
byeee!

love,
Nana

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baby,
you know,i'm really glad you would sit down and talk about us that night.
im really happy you came.
i really understand the situation you're in finally.
and im really glad you'd talk about it.
the msg you sent me once you got home really moved me in someways.
knowing you're so damn tired but still willing to type a long text is really smthng really special.
and that chemistry and bond there is btwn us.
i feel it getting stronger.our love havent stopped growing.
i know you're aware of that.
idk what people had been bitching about me going crazy and whatever fuck there is about me and you. but whatever it is,you know it isnt me.
im sorry i've been really paranoid.
just because i didnt understand.
i hope time will really get me back into ur arms,cus i know i still somehow belong there.
enuf said.
its still you.
its meant to be....
i believe. so should u baby.
i'll be waiting and you know that i will.
you light up my life.
you're NEVER just a part of my life.
you are my life.
and i love you more than words could say.
imy....


love always,
Nana

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You know our love was meant to be
The kind of love that lasts forever
And I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time
You should know, everywhere I go
You're always on my mind,in my heart
In my soul
You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin'
No one needs you more than I need you
And I know, yes I know that it's plain to see
We're so in love when we're together
And I know that I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time

i never knew what to say anymore.
i never knew how to speak anymore.


Dear baby,
my blog's probably dead and there's more or less a high chance you're not viewing it.
you've been online alot recently cus your computer's fixed.
but i never knew how to talk or start a conversation anymore.
idk how or why.
there seemed to be so much i wna tell you.but seems i cant.
im not running away.
im not avoiding.
it had really been a hard few months without you.
i know what you're feeling about us.
i know you want the best for me and that you love methat much to care so fucking much.
but baby,have it ever occur to you that by doing this instead,im not any happier? by doing this instead,im suffering in slience?
its not only me who could tell you care this much you know baby.
you know, even you told Wayne you'll be gg to XY's party with me.
and you had to add "see if im doing anything or not that day lah"
you know, i really really hope with all my heart that you'll come along with me.
its fairly not cus of lust.
i just wna spend a night with you.
i really hope you'll be there with me.

fate?or just concidence?
first time its a passy by,
second,its concidence,
third, its fate.
you're always at an angle where both me and you could see each other clearly.
we're mostly always digonally opposite each other in class.
its hard for me to look away or even pretend you're not looking. cus god damn you are.
but you know,thats when im really glad, though im not right beside you or smthng,but there'll still be that smile on my face whenever its you i see.

baby, i dont wish to continue this pretence.
none of my smiles is me smiling from my heart alrdy.
exceptfor the days where i actually speak to you face to face.
i see the times you always play with the pendant.
and looking at it like it was something special.
as much as i hope,i sure hope it is still something special.
cus it is to me.its not only special.its precious.

i miss how much you always disturb me.
i miss how much i always pick up stupid fights with you.
i miss the long conversations you'llmake with me online.
i miss how you'll say you'lltalk to me when its halftime whenever there was a man u match.
i miss how we'll walk hand in hand in the dark park knowing im afraid to be walking alone.
i miss how you'llalways give me a kiss before we part (which you still do... and then you had to spoil everything by telling me you didnt know why you did it and that you're sorry you did.which i know you obviously do know why you did that.)
i miss how you always complain about the long journeys to and fro from tampines to cck but still insist on sending me home.
i miss giving you stupidly early morning calls and ur lazy voice in the morning.
i miss your hugs and kisses.
i miss everything about you.


i wish you were here.
idk what else i could say.
yes,i am always here.
and yes im hoping and am waiting.
cus right now, all i know is that i know you and that it is you.
i love you baby dear.
you know that right?
im excited and am looking forward to saturday with you.
i hope you wont play me out.
cus i'vealrdy told XY you're coming :)

love,
Nana

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