WA EH I DAMN UPSET.
PEOPLE SAYS IM FAT.
THIS IS SO UPSETTING!
IMA DO HARDCORE TRAINING NOW.
WEIGHT LOSSS. WEIGHT LOSS.
DIET DIET NOWW.
OR I CULD EVEN DIE NOW.....

P/S DONT COMFORT ME SABRI!

ello earthlings.
im so sorry to everyone who had been worrying about me.
thanks and STOP worrying!
i'm allrite now. i can fly already.

sorry i havent been blogging and updateing about all your worries.
i have been watching tv dramas.
going to the library to read books for school. which sucked badly.
and also i'm lazy lahh.

everything's fine at home already.
and im glad the treatment didnt last. *phewww*
i was going crazyy okayy.

god have been playing with people these days.
M.J died!
its super sudden okayy.
i meant there was no news about him in a really long long tym and suddenly,
"Michael Jackson died last night.."
he was a talent everyone knew.
he was the king of pop everyone respected.
listening to his songs gives me a different kind of feeling everytime.
however, this tym, sadness seemed to engulf.
its strange how he seemed close to people when he's not.

R.I.P, M.J.....



i'm super upset the last 2 days.
my sayang broke!
stupid lcd lenses.
now under servicing.
i cannot function without my fone sial!
i depend on electronics too much.
and thats not good.
my temp fone's retarded already.
M.F...
cheebye that Lg girl at tampines onee.
i really wna maki her.

:" my lcd's cracked what am i supposed to do? culd i repair it here?"
[she gimme that irritated not happy look]" no. u have to repair at service centre"
:"how much does it costs?"
[stares]" $150 to $200"

cheebye. i just walked away. then i realised i didnt ask where to repair. so i asked Sab to ask her.
nabei what annoyed me was her attitude!
she changed her attitude towards Sab!
i realised. cus Sab's a guy.
cheee byeeeeeee!

dah lahh. dont wna talk about her.
my blood boils sial.
Lasalles's "required readin" books are driving me to my grave.
seems nobody heard of the books before.
and i actually spent onee bloody hour looking for them in 4 huge multi tinkat shelfs.
which sucked cus i only found 3!
M.F.

i blew $200 on Ballet stuffs! im gg crazy!
was only supposed to get demi pointes but i ended up getting another leotard, summore stockings, wrap skirt, jazz sneakers, foot thongs and my demi pointes.
everything cam up to 200! nabei.
thank god mummy was there.
if not idk how i'll make it back home.

he's frustrating!
i don't know why or what he wants.
Calling me at night and flirted?
texting me to "care"?
i never got that from you when i was with you.
why are u doing this to me?
tryna tell me how your girlfriend listens to u and not get upset cus you're contacting other girls?
wait, lemme make this clear.
thats not what you call a girlfriend.
you call that a dog.
what kind of girlfriend dont get mad when u're contacting girls in the middle of the night when she's asleep?
so thats what u did to me isnt it?
what kind of girlfriend always listen to you?
you were like 50/50 when we were together.
and i realised you havent grow up anyway.
telling me that you're not angry and that u just wna know why i nvr reply your smses. and that if i didnt like it you will stop smsing me.
tell me what am i suppose to reply to " ohh.. haha."????
tell me why do u wna know what i'm doing?
tell me why u keep saying your gf wuldn't mind you smsing me?
so thats your form of TRUST?
telling people that u're sick and tired of me "controlling" you?
hello, controlling you?
i NEVER did that. i never wanted you to keep me company 24/7.
i never told u u couldnt go out with your friends or play basket ball.
I NEVER!
you got used to it.
YOU got used to me.
YOU stopped ur activities.
not me. i never did.
so was it me controlling you or you getting used to me?
you not giving me privacy?
i dont understand.
i don't understand you.
and so i realised,i never did.
I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs
i never needed pain,i never needed strain.
My love for you was strong enough you should've known.
I never needed you for judgement
I never needed you to question what i spent
I never asked for help,
I take care of myself,
I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.
And it's a little in the conversations
There isn't anything that you can say.
I never needed your corrections
On everything from how i act to what i say
i never needed words,
i never needed hurt,
i never needed you to be there everyday
I'm sorry for the way i let go
Of everything i wanted when you came along
But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated
I know next to you is not where i belong
And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do because,
There is no other way
I get the final say
Because I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
I've already spoken
Our love is broken.


bye earthlings.
i'll upload pictures when i get them from CMH and Serenaaaaa^^
love,
nana.

Labels: M.J, R.I.P

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!
this is soooooo super duper duper frusterating!!!!
Life obviously had not been treating me well.
i'm so caught up in everything!
troubles never seem to know the exits in my life.
instead, they keep entering my life.
damn fucked up one okayy.

getting in trouble with the law,
getting in trouble for the most little thing,
all got me into trouble with my parents.

tell me what kind of useless daughter would keep getting into trouble with every little thing there is?
i'll tell you.........
ME.

as far as i know, i'm just trying to get out of troubles.
whatever type of troubles it may seem.

like fone's LCD screen cracked also myy fault.
nabei im super tired of all this little little thing they put togeher which they call "LIFE".
all this really left me no mood to do anything!
anything except ballet.

i guess the only thing that could make me happy though whatever ther is is BALLET.
and its always ballet.
dancing cures every damn thing.
but not emotionally.

try to act the same but its killing me inside.
im really trying to be the "good girl"
but i cant seem to get that right.
when things cool down, i realised im in another picture which spells trouble AGAIN.
its so damn irritating!

slient treatments and ignorance at home?
and they say ignorance is bliss.
i dont agree.

everyone tells me they need tym.
i really hope things clear soon.
im miserable!
im super miserable.
im now restricted from almost everything!
no more shopping.
no more going out with friends.
no more alos everyrhing except HOME.
and Dance classes.

i seriously mcm prisoner now.
i needa go fix my stupid LCD screen tmrw.
i sayang my fone tau!
nabei!

needa go harbourfrount tmrw.
shitttttt!

i have no mood anymore.
byee earthlings!

thanks Sabri for the Channel.
sorry gor gor culdnt meet you today.

complications just got complicated.

Ello!
i went to Sentosa's Palawan beach with myy bimbo today.

wait wait, first i wna say, dont comment about the pictures. because
my hair's in a huge mess thanks to the stupid salt water. Palawan beach's water is damn bloody salty! and now, im applying mask on my hair cus the water made it damn dry and yicky to touch! nabei cheebye.

okayy.
i'm fucking sad now.
i got sun burnt!
and i currently have a red nose, a red uneven tan and super rosy cheeks.
ima look so wierd in my leotard tmrw.

anywyas, today was damn fun.
how do i start?
Yani wanted to SIT everywhere we went so we managed to get seats on the monorill.
i tell u... AWESOME VIEW!
i didnt mean the senery. i meant the one in the opposite seat.
i was munching on chips lahhh, i know, so unglam. but i got hungry. i just took the packet of chips and hid my face! i turned to Yani and was like:" OMG! HE'S SO CUTE!"
okayy. he was bio-ing me all the tym okayy.
*blush blush*
maybe we were "fated" to meet.
i didnt see him when we got out from the toliet when we bathed.
i went to rinse the sand off my flip flops when Yani poked me and was like " that boy's there!"
i turned and looked. he was staring back at me!
but FUCK!
sayang lor. he got no balls!
see only. nvr ask for number. cheebye.
poke poke friend and whisper but eyes nailed on. but nvr talk.

[sorry for all the vulgar i'm using.]

post pictures now. don't talk ler.
i damn fucking sad already.
double sadness already.

DON'T LOOK AT ME. LOOK AT YANI'S HANDS.

this one. next tym u may see her on private R21 discs uh.

that was all for today. we took damn little pictures lor.

but we saw a few cute guys though.

Yani says i culdnt get attached till i'm one yr single.

merepek only uh she. cus she's only 6 mths single.

this was yesterday.

[errr so unglam i forgot take the underwear off my wardrobe before i take picture oops!]

ima get pictures frm CMH soon. upload those next tym!

oh oh, i got a dress which costs $129.90 for $5!!!!!!!!!

its soo glam. damn glamm lor and Yani actually asked me to wear that with her at vivo in my flip flops! lol! damn funny.

i'm damn saddd noww.

gg raid my fridge find happy drug [aka chocolate].

okayyyyy..

toodles!

loveeeeeeee,

NANA *

hello earthlings!
i can't seem to get fall asleep so i decide to blog.

Richard gorgor and Mei Yin jiejie's wedding was on Saturday the 13th.
it was a super fun day for me a well.
Mom was told to be at uncle Philip's house early that day so i somehow managed to stumble out of bed at 7 in the morning and got prepared.
well, uncle Philip's house was the bridegroom's house.
there was only all the guys there who are the "bestmen". the 兄弟 of the bridegroom.
since there was practically nothing to do when the groom fetches his bride, the adults asked me to tag the 兄弟s to fetch the bride.
and by having a lady meant bringing some luck.
there were 8 guys and 2 ladies which include me and Anna jiejie[the wedding planner].
i rode with Kevin gorgor who owns a mini cooper. damn cute lil car.
the youngest guy there was uncle Philip's youngest son who is 22?
the most ridiculous and cool thing was that there were 5 cars going over to fetch the bride.
i'm sort of the "spy" fo the 兄弟s.
wrong move!!!!!!!!!!!
early morning i had to help the 兄弟s blow balloons and tresure hunt for sweets and eating sweets with an empty stomach!
that were the games the bride'smates played with the guys!
it was crazy. but the worst was yet to come.
the waiting outside for the bridesmates to open the damn door was the killer!
the weather was like fuck and we were all cramped outside eating and desperately chewing on sweets while waiting for the groom to settle money and quizes to unlock the door!
by the tym we got in, i culd actually squeeze the pesperations into a pail.
my hair was dripping wet!
the bridesmates jiejies were like asking me why i was outside instead of inside.
i was like :"i came with the guys. cannot betray them if not i've got no transport back!"
i attacked the fans the first thing i stepped into the house.
we left the house really quickly though.
maybe hammers and pliers does a faster job.
Kevin gorgor was like really good a driver.
he 开路 for the bride's car the whole tym!
when we got back to uncle Philip's house, i realised all the bridesmaids squeesed into the 7 seater!
i was like omg! there's like 5 cars....
anyways, i got $40!
haha! damn cool!
the dinner was held at THE RITZ CARLTON SINGAPORE!
omg i fucking love that hotel!
the room can oversee the whole city!
the night view is like oh my god! *melts*

well, i went for a funeral the next day.
it was my granduncle's wife's funeral.
whom i call kim poh.
who is my grandma's sister in law.
she died of a terminal illness.
but she was a strong lady. for all i know was that i think it was my first tym i actually got to see her, i tink. on her death bed.
or maybe i did see her once. i really cant remember.

ima stop talking. the post is getting draggy.

candid of my beloved father.

this is my another kim poh.

my daddy's cousins with yi poh nacit and my granny.

my granny's known as yi pendek.[short aunt]

this one is my daddy with yi poh nancy.
thats all i took. i think my granny had 7 sisters but u only saw 2.

the bottom few are the ones taaken during the wedding on saturday :D

ima get the rest of the pictures from the bride when she has them.

the photographer took the pictures in the morning where i didnt cus i left my camera in my bag which is in uncle Philip's house so these are the night ones.

this is the place Michelle Chia got married to btw.

the toliet's damn grand too!

sorry for some nc16 stuffs. you know what i meant. just stop staring.

Angpows were dropped in here.hall plan for tables. ouh erm... i was a receptionist at night. so...

wanna know the most ridiculous thing of the wedding?

the flowers i took. [some are blurred.] the decorations costs $10000!

10k for FLOWERS!

best thing now.

food.

that's Abalone.

desert. super sweet stuffs.
this is a typical chinese wedding.
i meant typical cus they serve typical chinese food which costs way beyond budget.

Mrs Deiguchi.

the wife of a Japanese boss.

this is an Iranian lady who is the girlfriend of another flithy rich fellow.
oh did i mention she snapped a few candid pictures of me without me knowing till she did it?
but erm, she wasnt the only one.

Anna and Zing jiejie.

okayy, I FUCKING LOVE THE MIRRORS!!

fucking expensive flowers deserves an owner.

90% of the guests were CEOs of multi national companies.

the CEO of courts gave me his name card!

haha! omg!

the story will be featured on some magazine next week or something.

oh right, GHOSTS OF GIRLDFRIEND PAST is a two thumbs up.

must catch okayy?

tym check: 0440hrs.

shit! im going out later and i'm still awake.

dunno howda dragg myself out of bed already.

caffine doesnt work on me so no use.

okayy. i'll find a way to fall asleep and wake up on tym:D

will upload pictures again:D

good morning earthlings!

good night Nana!

love,

Nana.

Labels: R.I.P