LOVE ME OR HATE ME ITS STILL AN OBSESSION...
my blog; my life; my way
i'm not the girl next door but the BITCH across the street.
i'm the kind that the girls don't like
i'm the kind that the boys fantasize
i'm the kind that your mama and your daddy's afraid who you'll turn out to be like
"she says she's no good with words,but im worse.
barely stuttered out a joke of romance stucked to my tongue
weighed down with words,too over dramatic
tonight its it can't get much more
no one should ever feel im two quarters and a heart down
and i don't want to forget how your voice sounds
these words are all i have,so i'll write...."
DROP DEAD GORGEOUS...
dance=life17/F
STUDENT
LASALLE
Her love's her life:D
THE DEVIL USES PRADA
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bitch bitch bitch all you want...
I CRAVE FOR...
STRAWBERIES!!
DEY ARE WHY I LIVE...
Ath
bryan
Claire
Chiaa
CS
Debbie
ET
Elaine
HH
JieLing
Karishma
Kaen
Natiara
Nazri
Nazie
Pamela
Q
Regan
Sabri
Shi Hui
VanNessa
I WISH I WISH I WISH...
i'm next to my baby now...
CHANEL BOOTS
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a shot to kill the pain
a pill to drain the shame
a purge to stop the gain
a cut to break the vein
a smoke to ease the grave
a drink to win the game
an addiction's an addiction
cus it always hurts the same.
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Hihi.. i haven been blogging for quite some time alrdy cus im super irritated with my broadband.
i hope i can finish this post before i get disconnected again.
im jobless. and i've been doing nth but spend money buying and watching taiwan dramas.
im becomming more and more of a drama mama too!!!
im not even contacting anyone f my besties at all!!
maybe except for yani who texted me randomly today. but it end up in like 2 texts den full stop.
school started for her alrdy. damn i miss her truckloads!!!
d last person i contacted and got to get out with was claire.
izzati's jobless too still i guess. had been gg out with her job hunting but had stoped so now.
joy's working and i hardly even get to see her except like once a week for 1 and a half hr of ballet maybe a lil more.
liz is schooling so no one to bake with or even hus hop with.
Q, i hven contacted her since her birthday or isit a few days after.
yess... i've drifted away...
i really need a job!!!
i cant afford to keep shaking my legs at home.
water and electricity bill had rose.
but im kinda giving up on job hunting alrdy.
i've spent like a month job hunting but to no avail.
school starts in august..
oh btw, im accepting lasalle's intake instead of nafa's.
lasalle's a diploma for d first 3 yrs and bachalor d next and then a masters d following.
but nafa's only a diploma for 3 or 4 yrs.
so yea.. im taking a challenge for the lasalle's degree instead.
im in love with the school!!!
and the dance studio is huge!!!
its like 2-3 times bigger then crestar's studio!!!
we can do like 5 grand jete in the studio!!!
and 16 posse pirouettes side to side of the studio,not diagonally!
sorry if u dunno what im talking abt. im getting crazier by day.
my mom's temper haden been as good anihows.
she's always up and down. i get scolded for no particular reason one time den the next, im like a 100% angel.
i admit i've cursed a million times at her in a day.
d other reason she's scolding me is cus i dun have a job.
i seriously tried to ask for part time and full time ut the fact that noone's free and that noone's hiring is driving ME insane alrdy. the ridiculious thing is that my mom starts nagging abt me not being serious and not wanting to find a job. she always brings this up when she starts to scold for no particular reason.the thing im pissed is that there are some places that are looking for part time or even full time. i realli wanna work. but when i disscuss wif her abt tt particular job that has a vacancy, she says no.
i really have no idea what the fuck she really want me to do. i mean, she nvr know how much i've tried to look for a decent job to past time but she nvr gives me the chance to try for the job that has a vacancy. and then i dun think that she has the right to tick me off for not finding a job cus i've been gg door to door despite which shop,looking for a bloody fucking job!!
somebody tell me what am i supposed to do or say. im sick and tired of all dis. dad always stands at her side wich is a thing cus she shows and tells another story to dad and to me.
u angels out there reading my blog, if u had always envied me being the only child, i'll switch places with one whose parents dun care abt him/her and focuses their attention with ur siblings. just so they give me money and dun care who or what i mix ard with. im 100% willing to trade with u with everything i have.
done. i manage to complete this post without getting disconnected.
replies to tag board: Chinsiang- thanks brother!! oh just so u know, i've cut down on sticks. haven touched one in a week alrdy.
Serena- i've choosen lasalle instead cus i rather another 2 yrs to get a degree then 3 yrs on a diploma.
Hezron-hey brother! thanks man! im fine. nvr better. hope u're good too. made some new friends i hope?or arre u bored to death cus we're not there?heehee:)
JOY'-hey hey baby! thanks thanks! i miss u alot alot and for god's sake im done rotting at home!!! i really need a job!!!!
love,
nana