LOVE ME OR HATE ME ITS STILL AN OBSESSION...
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i'm not the girl next door but the BITCH across the street.
i'm the kind that the girls don't like
i'm the kind that the boys fantasize
i'm the kind that your mama and your daddy's afraid who you'll turn out to be like
"she says she's no good with words,but im worse.
barely stuttered out a joke of romance stucked to my tongue
weighed down with words,too over dramatic
tonight its it can't get much more
no one should ever feel im two quarters and a heart down
and i don't want to forget how your voice sounds
these words are all i have,so i'll write...."
DROP DEAD GORGEOUS...
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Her love's her life:D
THE DEVIL USES PRADA
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bitch bitch bitch all you want...
I CRAVE FOR...
STRAWBERIES!!
DEY ARE WHY I LIVE...
Ath
bryan
Claire
Chiaa
CS
Debbie
ET
Elaine
HH
JieLing
Karishma
Kaen
Natiara
Nazri
Nazie
Pamela
Q
Regan
Sabri
Shi Hui
VanNessa
I WISH I WISH I WISH...
i'm next to my baby now...
CHANEL BOOTS
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a shot to kill the pain
a pill to drain the shame
a purge to stop the gain
a cut to break the vein
a smoke to ease the grave
a drink to win the game
an addiction's an addiction
cus it always hurts the same.
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this is the cause of being alone for way too long.
i think alot and thats not a good thing cus i think nasty thoughts.
supossed it shuld be a fullstop from the gangsterish thoughts of beating him up cus he lied and all that stuff became a nasty thought.
have you ever had any regrets?
i guess everyone did regret after they did something they shuld have started with.
i've been stoning and thinking alot lately.
from missing school and friends to the regrets of loving and being so true to this one bastard.
i guess i can safely say that most 60% of girls fell for a bastard.
i was one of them.
i Fell so hard.
My heart soon scared.
Tears soon fall.
Waiting for your call.
Memories to forget.
Loving you is my regret.
I wish we'd never met.~
Hate a common emotion.
My thoughts soon a commotion.
I miss you i thought you were,
And who you'll never be.
I guess i was blind,
From you loving me.
My heart slows.
as the cold wind blows.
This is my love song.
You did me wrong.
It went so fast.
Memories will fade.
Time wasnt made,
For us to last.
i realized that are bonds are lies nothing that will spurt blood for you would never save me if i was in need you would never take a bullet for me.
i trusted you before but now i know your just a fake. all my feelings i thought you cared for that bottled up in me,don't seem to close shut today.they want to come out and spurt they want to spill onto you and yet i try to prevent me from exploding into your hands.love was a mistake i took for you.
i regret ever doing so being alive just for you is not a goal anymore.
i want you dead.
from a lover to me wanting him dead is a big thing.
i told you i've been thinking nasty thoughts and i meant really nasty.
he was a big mistake.
it was a mistake i've made and truely regret.
the first 6 minths was lovely i wun lie.
but the following yr and a half was a disaster.
its like a wave to a tsunami.
ultimate disaster.
lies and friends seemed to be a big thing bastards hold.
at first was his friends, then came the lies.
then came the girls.
i seriouslyregret this love because i was vry tiong xim.
or shuld i say too tiong xim alrdy that he stepped beyond the line of trust.
i wuldnt mind if he smoked or played basketball. i mean its allrite till he starts to lie.
somehow i just cant understand.
whats a relationship without trust?
the comes 背叛[betrayal].
because i never know whats going on.
in one way or 2, i always get news from his friends. never him.
the strange part abt this was that i always forgive him!
and thats the part abt it!
know how foolish i was to even spend useless and not nessasary money on him.
i got these thoughts cus i didnt get a birthday wish from him!
to think he was desperately tryna get back wif me last yr and without fail midnight.
knn. i guess he might or must have died alrdy. cus i havent seen him ard.
did i mention that he is with some girl he was contacting when i was still with him like a mth or so after i broke up with him?
yar, see, thats the kind of jerk i dated.
but in another way, i ought to thank him.
because of him, i was made a stronger person.
because of him, i understood not to fall in love so easily[er, that didnt reli help]
because of him, i know hoe to judge guys.
but because of him, he scar-ed my heart and left a regret.