LOVE ME OR HATE ME ITS STILL AN OBSESSION...
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i'm not the girl next door but the BITCH across the street.
i'm the kind that the girls don't like
i'm the kind that the boys fantasize
i'm the kind that your mama and your daddy's afraid who you'll turn out to be like
"she says she's no good with words,but im worse.
barely stuttered out a joke of romance stucked to my tongue
weighed down with words,too over dramatic
tonight its it can't get much more
no one should ever feel im two quarters and a heart down
and i don't want to forget how your voice sounds
these words are all i have,so i'll write...."
DROP DEAD GORGEOUS...
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LASALLE
Her love's her life:D
THE DEVIL USES PRADA
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bitch bitch bitch all you want...
I CRAVE FOR...
STRAWBERIES!!
DEY ARE WHY I LIVE...
Ath
bryan
Claire
Chiaa
CS
Debbie
ET
Elaine
HH
JieLing
Karishma
Kaen
Natiara
Nazri
Nazie
Pamela
Q
Regan
Sabri
Shi Hui
VanNessa
I WISH I WISH I WISH...
i'm next to my baby now...
CHANEL BOOTS
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
May 2010
a shot to kill the pain
a pill to drain the shame
a purge to stop the gain
a cut to break the vein
a smoke to ease the grave
a drink to win the game
an addiction's an addiction
cus it always hurts the same.
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apologies
to you know who u are.
look, i'm not trying to be somebody im not okay,
by deleting everything of me everywhere clearly shoes how much u've really don't want this friendship.
you think i like being so busy?
you always hear but you don't listen.
i'm not some big shot u need to "book".
the fact now is you have a life,
and i know how much u're trying okay.
there are things i don't talk about that dampends my moods.
and im sorry i took it out on you.
im not saying any fuck about u being useless or an asshole okay.
i just want back MY friend. the guy i used to know.
the one who'll do crazy and stupid things with me.
like not listening to what Yani's trying to say and camwhoring all the way!
the guy who'll always was there to talk to.
but the fact is, there isnt that guy around me anymore!
you understand at all? you've deleted me from everywhere.
how am i supposed to know you visited my blog?
i can't find that one person who'll talk to me and layan me till 3 am!
because of the fact i don't see him online anymore! in fact i cant.
i admit i'm at fault. but u are too.
i know i might have said stuffs that were too overboard. but thats because i'm tired.
i have a full and energised crazy life.
i thought u knew.
i thought when everyone wasn't there, you were.
i thought when you were the only one who understand.
you have a life now. i'm not there in class to punch or even hit u or say "HI" to you anymore.
you're in another part of the world. away from me.
i dont even know what you're doing or what isit you are anymore.
cus i've lost connections from you.
all the connections.
maybe not one.
my heart of friendship still carrys your name.
the one you carved "bff".
i'm sorry i'm not being the bestest friend to you after all this while.
and because i've been working, i've neglected to respond to you.
i'm unable to define and understand you.
you're not just a friend.
you were true.
i still know cus u walked out of my life but u left footprints in it.
tell me how you're to erase all that you've left me.
i know you still care.
cus you're the best friend a girl culd ever have.
and maybe so, i wont regret if you're not gna do anything about us.
but i definately had regretted losing a best friend like you.
because of you, i'm known as ahlian.
because of you, i'm also known as chilli padi.
because of you, i moved on.
because i've hurt you,
i'm really sorry.
because i've neglected you,
i really thought you left me.
because its me.
i'm so so so sorry.
i hope you'll still and always will be there and put aside our differences.
i'm not asking you for too much now am i?
as far as i ate to admit this,
i miss talking to the doughe bag or whatever is it you called.
i sinserely apologise to you.
i'm sorry MD.S.
i really am this time.
i hope you'll truely understand why i did that and yes, i cant take back those words but as far as i'm concerned, i wished we'll just put tis behind as that bff was said to be "forever".
love,
nana