ello earthlings.
im so sorry to everyone who had been worrying about me.
thanks and STOP worrying!
i'm allrite now. i can fly already.

sorry i havent been blogging and updateing about all your worries.
i have been watching tv dramas.
going to the library to read books for school. which sucked badly.
and also i'm lazy lahh.

everything's fine at home already.
and im glad the treatment didnt last. *phewww*
i was going crazyy okayy.

god have been playing with people these days.
M.J died!
its super sudden okayy.
i meant there was no news about him in a really long long tym and suddenly,
"Michael Jackson died last night.."
he was a talent everyone knew.
he was the king of pop everyone respected.
listening to his songs gives me a different kind of feeling everytime.
however, this tym, sadness seemed to engulf.
its strange how he seemed close to people when he's not.

R.I.P, M.J.....



i'm super upset the last 2 days.
my sayang broke!
stupid lcd lenses.
now under servicing.
i cannot function without my fone sial!
i depend on electronics too much.
and thats not good.
my temp fone's retarded already.
M.F...
cheebye that Lg girl at tampines onee.
i really wna maki her.

:" my lcd's cracked what am i supposed to do? culd i repair it here?"
[she gimme that irritated not happy look]" no. u have to repair at service centre"
:"how much does it costs?"
[stares]" $150 to $200"

cheebye. i just walked away. then i realised i didnt ask where to repair. so i asked Sab to ask her.
nabei what annoyed me was her attitude!
she changed her attitude towards Sab!
i realised. cus Sab's a guy.
cheee byeeeeeee!

dah lahh. dont wna talk about her.
my blood boils sial.
Lasalles's "required readin" books are driving me to my grave.
seems nobody heard of the books before.
and i actually spent onee bloody hour looking for them in 4 huge multi tinkat shelfs.
which sucked cus i only found 3!
M.F.

i blew $200 on Ballet stuffs! im gg crazy!
was only supposed to get demi pointes but i ended up getting another leotard, summore stockings, wrap skirt, jazz sneakers, foot thongs and my demi pointes.
everything cam up to 200! nabei.
thank god mummy was there.
if not idk how i'll make it back home.

he's frustrating!
i don't know why or what he wants.
Calling me at night and flirted?
texting me to "care"?
i never got that from you when i was with you.
why are u doing this to me?
tryna tell me how your girlfriend listens to u and not get upset cus you're contacting other girls?
wait, lemme make this clear.
thats not what you call a girlfriend.
you call that a dog.
what kind of girlfriend dont get mad when u're contacting girls in the middle of the night when she's asleep?
so thats what u did to me isnt it?
what kind of girlfriend always listen to you?
you were like 50/50 when we were together.
and i realised you havent grow up anyway.
telling me that you're not angry and that u just wna know why i nvr reply your smses. and that if i didnt like it you will stop smsing me.
tell me what am i suppose to reply to " ohh.. haha."????
tell me why do u wna know what i'm doing?
tell me why u keep saying your gf wuldn't mind you smsing me?
so thats your form of TRUST?
telling people that u're sick and tired of me "controlling" you?
hello, controlling you?
i NEVER did that. i never wanted you to keep me company 24/7.
i never told u u couldnt go out with your friends or play basket ball.
I NEVER!
you got used to it.
YOU got used to me.
YOU stopped ur activities.
not me. i never did.
so was it me controlling you or you getting used to me?
you not giving me privacy?
i dont understand.
i don't understand you.
and so i realised,i never did.
I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs
i never needed pain,i never needed strain.
My love for you was strong enough you should've known.
I never needed you for judgement
I never needed you to question what i spent
I never asked for help,
I take care of myself,
I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.
And it's a little in the conversations
There isn't anything that you can say.
I never needed your corrections
On everything from how i act to what i say
i never needed words,
i never needed hurt,
i never needed you to be there everyday
I'm sorry for the way i let go
Of everything i wanted when you came along
But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated
I know next to you is not where i belong
And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do because,
There is no other way
I get the final say
Because I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
I've already spoken
Our love is broken.


bye earthlings.
i'll upload pictures when i get them from CMH and Serenaaaaa^^
love,
nana.

Labels: M.J, R.I.P