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i'm not the girl next door but the BITCH across the street.
i'm the kind that the girls don't like
i'm the kind that the boys fantasize
i'm the kind that your mama and your daddy's afraid who you'll turn out to be like
"she says she's no good with words,but im worse.
barely stuttered out a joke of romance stucked to my tongue
weighed down with words,too over dramatic
tonight its it can't get much more
no one should ever feel im two quarters and a heart down
and i don't want to forget how your voice sounds
these words are all i have,so i'll write...."
DROP DEAD GORGEOUS...
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Sunday, July 19, 2009
THE VOUGE LOOK.. LOL. CHERYL AND JOELYNNE CMI LAHH!
ALISHA TOOK THIS. SO CANDID. IDK WHAT CHERYL WAS ASKING ME THAT WE STARED LIKE WE'RE GNA KILL EACH OTHER ANYTYM.
MUMMY CALLED. AND LIKE THAT ALSO CAN TAKE PICTURE:D
WE LOOK KINDA SIMILIAR.
CHERYL, THIS IS CALLED CLASSIC CAN!
ALISHA'S PROMOTING THE PIZZA CRACKERS. SHE PRACTICALLY FINISHED THE WHOLE PACKET!
SEE, IM NOT KIDDING. WE ALREADY STRETCHED OUR LEGS BUT THERE'E STILL ALOT OF SPACE LORR. THATS HOW BIG THE MAT WAS! LOL
IT WAS EFFIN HOT I SWEAR! I WAS LIKE DRIPPING WET.
SHE'S LIKE SUPER SMALL CAN.
AND STILL COMPLAINS SHE'S FAT?!?!??!?
DARK WAS APPROACHING, MORE LIKE RAIN LOR. THE SKY BECAME RED.
DAMN SWEEEEEEE!
THEY WERE ACTING MODELS AND YEA. CHERYL'S VOUGE LOOK. LOL
THEY SAID THERE WERE ABOUT 2 THOUSAND PEOPLE THERE. HMMM.
I SWEAR I WAS ON THE VERGE FROM THE START OF THE SHOW TILL THE INTERVAL TILL THE END TO KILL PEOPLE!
FRIDAY, 17TH JULY 2009
[FORT CANNING GREEN]
BALLET UNDER THE STARS
FORT CANNING GREEN ON FRIDAY.
IT WAS A LAST MINUTE UNCONFIDENT BUS RIDE TO FORT CANNING.
THANKS TO CHERYL. CALLED SUPER LAST MINUTE TO CHANGE PLANS.
WAITED FOR JOELYNNE AS SHE WAS A ROAD DUMMY AND SHE WAS AT TAMPINES INTERCHANGE ALREADY.
518 GOES TO PLAZA SINGAPURA SO I ASKED HER TO BUSS DOWN FROM INTERCHANGE TO MY HOUSE AREA :D
HAD SUDDEN CRAVINGS FOR SOUR PLUMS.
THANK GOD THE BUSSTOP HAD MAMA SHOPS:D
WAITED FOR THE BUS WHICH TOOK FOREVER TO COME.
AND THE BUS UNCLE DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE FORT CANNING IS!!!!
WE ENDED UP ASKING HIM IF THE BUS GOES TO DOUBY GHOURT-.-
IT WAS LIKE 6 ALREADY AND WE'RE STILL IN TAMPINES!!!!!!
PHONE BILLS WERE RISING THAT DAY MAN!
NOT CARMEN CALL ME JIU I CALL CHERYL.
JIALAT!
BUT WE MANAGED TO CLIMB UP FORT CANNING PARK TO FORT CANNING GREEN.
WE ACTUALLY MADE A HUGE ROUND. BUT LUCKY CUS FROM THE TOP CAN SPOT CHERYL. HER MAT WAS SUPER HUGE SO VERY EAZY SPOT! HAHAHA.
EVERYONE ELSE BESIDE US WERE LIKE 5,6 PEOPLE SQEEZING THEIR BIG BUTTS INTO A SMALL BEACH MAT. DAMN FUNNY! AND VERY OBSCENE!
THE VOUGE LOOK.. LOL. CHERYL AND JOELYNNE CMI LAHH!
ALISHA TOOK THIS. SO CANDID. IDK WHAT CHERYL WAS ASKING ME THAT WE STARED LIKE WE'RE GNA KILL EACH OTHER ANYTYM.
MUMMY CALLED. AND LIKE THAT ALSO CAN TAKE PICTURE:D
WE LOOK KINDA SIMILIAR.
CHERYL, THIS IS CALLED CLASSIC CAN!
ALISHA'S PROMOTING THE PIZZA CRACKERS. SHE PRACTICALLY FINISHED THE WHOLE PACKET!
SEE, IM NOT KIDDING. WE ALREADY STRETCHED OUR LEGS BUT THERE'E STILL ALOT OF SPACE LORR. THATS HOW BIG THE MAT WAS! LOL
IT WAS EFFIN HOT I SWEAR! I WAS LIKE DRIPPING WET.
SHE'S LIKE SUPER SMALL CAN.AND STILL COMPLAINS SHE'S FAT?!?!??!?
DARK WAS APPROACHING, MORE LIKE RAIN LOR. THE SKY BECAME RED.
DAMN SWEEEEEEE!
THEY WERE ACTING MODELS AND YEA. CHERYL'S VOUGE LOOK. LOL
THEY SAID THERE WERE ABOUT 2 THOUSAND PEOPLE THERE. HMMM.I SWEAR I WAS ON THE VERGE FROM THE START OF THE SHOW TILL THE INTERVAL TILL THE END TO KILL PEOPLE!
PEOPLE ARE PRACTICALLY TAKING THEIR BLOODY TIME TO WALK UP AND DOWN THE HILL AND TO AND FRO IN FRONT OF US!
THE SHOW HAD STARTED AND THEY DONT EVEN BOTHER!
WE WE SIAMMMING THEM TO SEE. MOST SECTIONS ARE SOLOS AND WE'RE ALREADY SQUEENING OUR EYES TO WATCH THEM DANCE LOR.
WORST STILL, THOSE THAT STAND UP AND WALK UP HILL WERE THOSE SITTING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE GRASS PATCH!!! SRIOUSLY, ONCE THEY STAND, THEIR BUTT BLOCKS ANYONE ON STAGE. OR EVEN THE WHOLE STAGE!
SOME INSTEAD OF CARRYING THEIR BABIES AND SCRAM, THE HOLD THEIR HANDS AND WERE LIKE " HER GOT STEP, SLOWLY, SLOWLY," WTF?!?!?!?
I GOT ANNOYED FIRST, SLOWLY, CARMEN AND CHERYL GOT ANNOYED TOO.
THROUGHT OUT THE WHOLE BLOODY SHOW!
I GUESS AS MUCH, THESE PEOPLE DONT APPRECIATE CLASSICAL BALLET. THTEY JUST COME FOR THE SAKE OF "OHH I WATCHED BALLET UNDER THE STARS! IT WAS DAMN NICE!"
NICE MY ASS!
THE PERFORMANCE WAS SUPERB!
THE GUYS WERE AWESOMEEEEE!!!!!
PIROETTES WERE NOTHING TO THEM LAHH!OMG!
ONCES TURNED 7,8 ROUNDS!!!!
WOOHOO!
BUT THE GUY SITTING BEHIND US SPOILT THE WHOLE THING.
HE WENT " STOP SPINNING ALREADY! YOU'RE MAKING ME DIZZY!"
WHAT THE HELL? THIS IS CALLED CLASSICAL BALLET. AND IF HE'S MAKING YOU DIZZY WHY THE HELL YOU SPEND $25 TO WATCH SOMEONE WHO MAKES YOU DIZZY?
I SURVIVED 3 AND A HALF HOUR SITTING ON A SLOPED HILL!
PI GU WILL PAIN ONE.
THE SWHOLE THING ENDED AT 10. AND WE WERE ALL DAMN HIGH.
WE STOOD IN THE MIDDLE OF A MOVING ROAD AND JUMPED AROUND.
TRAINNED BACK TO TAMPINES.
BUSSED BACK WITH CARMEN :D
SATURDAY, 18TH JULY 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATIARA AND IZZATI BABY!!!!
I WOKE UP AT 1130! DAMN GOOD LOR ME.
CB. DUNNO WHY WEEKDAYS CAN WAKE UP SO EARLY THOUGH SLEEP SO LATE BUT WEEKENDS CANNOT WAKE UP AT ALL.
WENT MARKET TO EAT THEN GO GRANDMA'S HOUSE.
AND BALLET AFTER.
I JUST REALISED MY GRANDMA'S MAID IS INDONESIAN!
LOL! I KEPT THINKING SHE WAS PHILIPINA.
MS PANG IS OFFICIALLY AWAY FROM CLASS ALREADY.
SUPPOSED I THOUGHT THE CHINA TEACHER'S GNA BE CRAP, BUT SHE TURNED OUT TO BE DAMN GOOD.
ONLY HER PROUNCIATION'S A BIT WIERD.
THOUGH I CAME TO KNOW GLISSADE IS 格里萨 AND PAS DE CHAT IS 帕地莎!
:D
MS CHOW IS GOOD LOR.
MS CHOW IS GOOD LOR.
SHE EVALUATES EACH OF US ONE BY ONE AND TELLS US OUR WEAK POINT AND OKAYY POINT AND GOOD POINT.
WAS ON FFS LAST NIGHT SNATCHING GUO QIANG FROM KELLY TILL I REALLY NO MONEY ALRDY!
DAMN ADDICTIVE :D
TODAY, I'VE BEEN CLEARING MY MESS IN MY ROOM!
TODAY, I'VE BEEN CLEARING MY MESS IN MY ROOM!
HAHHAA. I FOUND MY GAME BOY! YAY???
TILL NOW, I DECIDED TO BLOG!
I'M NOT ANGRY BECAUSE OF THE POLICE THINGY OR THE BOY THING.
I'M JUST REALLY TIRED OF YOUR GAMES.
IDK WHY I'M ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU. AND I MEANT ALWAYS.
BUT YOU? YOU WERE THERE BUT NEVER ALWAYS.
I'M TIRED OF BEING YOUR EXCUSE TO GO OUT WHEN YOU'RE WITH SOMEONE ELSE AND I HAVE TO GET MY MOM TO LIE IF YOUR MOM ASKED?
I'M TIRED OF BEING THE BACK UP FOR YOU.
FIRST THERE WAS P AND CLARA.
WHENEVER YOU ACTUALLY CALLED ME, WAS BECAUSE BOTH OF THEM ARE GNA BE LATE FOR CLASSES OR THEY'RE NOT COMMING AND YOU WERE ALONE.
MAYBE YOU'LL SAY THAT WASN'T THE INTENTION BUT ITS NOT ONCE.
IF I APPEAR P AND CLARA'S NOT THERE.
I DIDNT WNA SAY ANYTHING. WHAT ELSE COULD I DO? YOU WERE MY CLOSE FRIEND.
THEN CAME CHERYL. YOU THINK I DIDNT KNOW?
CHERYL WAS THE NEXT P AND CLARA EVER SINCE INTER STARTED.
I MEAN, IM NOT WHINNING OR COMPLAINING. ITS JUST THAT, USING ME, IS REALLY LOW OF YOU.
AND USING IS A RIGHT WORD CUS WHEN YOU ALWAYS HAVE DINNER AFTER CLASS, MAYBE ONCE OR TWICE YOU DID ASK. BUT ALWAYS? NEVER! OR EVEN ASK ME TO COME EARLIER FOR CLASSES? GOING OUT? NEVER! IF YOU'LL ASK, THAT IS BEACUSE THEY'RE NOT FREE!!!
IT HAD ALWAYS BEEN ME GETTING HURT.
IT HAD ALWAYS BEEN ME COVERING UP FOR YOU.
IT HAD ALWASY BEEN ME YOU'LL REMEMBER WHEN YOU NEED.
IT HAD ALWAYS BEEN ME LISTENING TO YOU.
IT HAD ALWAYS BEEN ME.
BUT IT HAD NEVER BEEN BE THAT YOU ACTUALLY APPRECIATE.NEVER.
YOU PUT IT IN A NICE WAY :" THIS IS STEPH, SHE'S THE BEST"
IN THE BAD WAY,:" THIS IS STEPH, SHE'S THE BEST. CUS SHE'S ALWAYS THERE AS A BACK UP"
I KNOW, BY FAMILY INCOME AND ALL, IM NOT SOME PARIS HILTON.
NEITHER COULD I EVEN BE NICOLE RICHIE.
BUT YOU ARE FINACIALLY YOU ARE.
AS I SAY PARIS BECAUSE YOU'RE JUST LIKE HER!
YOU COULD STILL ACT LIKE NTH HAPPENED AFTER BEING LOCKED?CUFFED?
YOU DIDNT GET THE HARSH TREATMENTS WE ALL HAD.
CUS WE'RE NOT PARIS. WE'RE THE ONLY ONES OUR PARENTS COULD COUNT ON.
WE'RE WORLDS APART FROM YOU.
TELL ME THEN WHAT WAS THE WORST THAT CATUALLY HAPPENED AT HOME AFTER THAT FAITHFULLY NIGHT?
I DON'T WANNA BE A BACKUP FRIEND ANY LONGER. I'VE BEEN FOR 14 YEARS ALREADY.
YES YOU DO REMEMBER ME. ONLY WHEN YOU NEED ME.
I HAVE HAD ENOUGH.
THAT WHY IM TURNING TO PEOPLE WHO TREATS ME LIKE PEOPLE. LIKE A REAL FRIEND. NEVER A BACKUP. AND I CAME TO REALISE I'M THE FIRST THEY'LL THINK OF INSTEAD OF A BACK UP!
AND I REALLY APRECIATE THAT MORE!
I'VE LEARNED TO LOVE CARMEN , CHERYL, JOY , JOELYNNE AND ALISHA MORE:D
I'M NOT GNA GO ON ANYMORE.
MY HEAD'S SPINNING.
OH AND FYI, SORRY FOR USING CAPS.
CUS THEY'RE SUPER COOL!
AND I DONT HAVE TO PRESS SHIFT FOR TYPING NAMES :D
BALLET IS SERIOUSLY LOVED,
NANA :D
shutup and listen;
Sunday, July 19, 2009