LOVE ME OR HATE ME ITS STILL AN OBSESSION...
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i'm not the girl next door but the BITCH across the street.
i'm the kind that the girls don't like
i'm the kind that the boys fantasize
i'm the kind that your mama and your daddy's afraid who you'll turn out to be like
"she says she's no good with words,but im worse.
barely stuttered out a joke of romance stucked to my tongue
weighed down with words,too over dramatic
tonight its it can't get much more
no one should ever feel im two quarters and a heart down
and i don't want to forget how your voice sounds
these words are all i have,so i'll write...."
DROP DEAD GORGEOUS...
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LASALLE
Her love's her life:D
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bitch bitch bitch all you want...
I CRAVE FOR...
STRAWBERIES!!
DEY ARE WHY I LIVE...
Ath
bryan
Claire
Chiaa
CS
Debbie
ET
Elaine
HH
JieLing
Karishma
Kaen
Natiara
Nazri
Nazie
Pamela
Q
Regan
Sabri
Shi Hui
VanNessa
I WISH I WISH I WISH...
i'm next to my baby now...
CHANEL BOOTS
December 2008
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June 2009
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September 2009
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November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
May 2010
a shot to kill the pain
a pill to drain the shame
a purge to stop the gain
a cut to break the vein
a smoke to ease the grave
a drink to win the game
an addiction's an addiction
cus it always hurts the same.
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and i hurt myself by hurting you....
mood= up and down.
i swear im gna get blind soon.
all these tears just seem to come at night.
it fucking suck big time.
idk why but its you who keep appearing in my dreams,and its you i keep seeing in my future.
loreal'smaking faces yesterday at wisma atria.
cool shit.
the makeup artist who did make up for me was a guy.
he's eyes are covered in eyeliner.
omg.but his skills are damn good.
he actually teached me the way to apply for the look.
so i sort of have a new look as a ultimate makeover for me.
ohh btw,he's the first person who says my eyes are big.and my lashes are long.
happy much?:P
packing my room since i woke up.
:/
i hate messing my room and needing to clear the mess after.but ahh fuck.
it all comes down to one habit of mine.
habits,im changing.
habits,its my habits ist it?
yes and my habits made you feel im stubborn.
im gna keep my promise.i swear.
yes,you've heard me say i'mchanging and that i really love you ladalada for the longest time.
i never did keep that promise.but b,i kept my promise to love you a lifetime.
my lifetime's not up yet.but im still loving you.
baby,i need you to trust me like i trust you to believe in what i say now.
i'vemade you a promise and imgna prove it to you m not the naive girl anymore.
i am Nana now.im who i amnot who i wna be anymore.
and cus you love mefor who i am, not who i wna be.
idk what the future holds for us both baby.
but seeing and hearing that you believe if we're meant to be we will be.
if we fall inlove again,we will.
seems you dont want anyone right now.
and you're not ready for a commitment.
i did tell you i'll wait,
i'll keep trying.
i'll do whatever it takes to keep us tgt.
not now baby.
i'll give you time.i'llwait.
idk what the future holds for us.but im certain you're in my future.
for the last time,please stop listening to what people think or feel abt us.
what matters isnt them,its us.
im the one in the relationship with you.not them.
get that into your head please?
im not gna tell ortalk to you anything about this anymore.
imgna wait for you instead.
i sure hopetimewill tell.
and timewilldetermine our fate.
i met you for a reason.
you got tgt with me for a reason.
you love me once.you will again.
i never wanted to hurt you and you know that.
you think i dont even mean a single word i say?
but its only words,and words are all i have to take your heart away.
yes,im following my heart and im truely understanding you alot more now.
i believe in us and i believe what im doing is what'sright and what happiness is about.
we'reon the midst of a rocky road now.and i dont want you to hate me.
if keeping quiet and loving you and waiting is what will bring you back,i'lldo just that.
i love you baby.
i do know and feel you do too.
words cnt espress myself and neither could i convince you.
all i could do is to prove it to you.
i am absorbing eveything you said.
i've been dressing nicely to school.and always the same boring style.
the only reason isnt to attract you or anyone.its beacuse a girl never forgets what he boyfriend says. and what you said was to melawa for you at least.not to others.
im changing my princess ways.
gimme a lil more time to prove.
i'llmake you see i've changed.
will you accept my apology if i said i was sorry?
yet again.i am true to you.you need to know that.
and im gna prove it.
Really a bit helpess,
I'm flirtatious only because of love
Sitting here, foolishly stewing
I still rely on your very pure love
my heart is still here,
the person who loves you is still here
Waiting painfully,
want to cry but couldn't cry
I never meant to hurt you,
you know,you should understand,and you do understand.
Too much room for love,
would get us easily hurt
Trusting and loving each other should be the only way
what I give to you, keep in your heart
I ultimately value so much, how could I forget?
Feel so sorry
Baby I'm so sorry
I never meant
I never meant to hurt you
I guess you should understand.
feel so lonely
Baby I'm so lonely
Do you know
I need you to come back
Are you alright
Please come back to my life.
My true heart still stays,it haven't separated from you
This life,my only wish is to love you
be With you forever, only waiting for you
love is innocent, love is limitless,
If I don't care for much then why do I suffer so tremedously
I am really too stupid, not understanding the hurt
i love you baby dearest!
i know you i do and you do too.
stop running away.
i miss you so fucking much!
love,
Nana
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