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i'm not the girl next door but the BITCH across the street.
i'm the kind that the girls don't like
i'm the kind that the boys fantasize
i'm the kind that your mama and your daddy's afraid who you'll turn out to be like
"she says she's no good with words,but im worse.
barely stuttered out a joke of romance stucked to my tongue
weighed down with words,too over dramatic
tonight its it can't get much more
no one should ever feel im two quarters and a heart down
and i don't want to forget how your voice sounds
these words are all i have,so i'll write...."
DROP DEAD GORGEOUS...
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i'm next to my baby now...
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Saturday, January 30, 2010
i miss you morethen the air that i breathe;i need you with me,im not gna lie.
i miss you morethen the air that i breathe;i need you with me,im not gna lie.
yes baby, then why? i finally found the reason i changed. forgive me i did.im me now. and being me,still wnabe with you.its only when you're ard that i feel complete.and i feel nth but love from you.i know you feel the same too.
Dear baby;
idk why im still blogging.
i should just let this blog die.
but,my affections and wishes have not died.
so neither will this blog be dead.
there's nothing i could say to you,nothing i could ever do to make you see what you mean to me.
honestly,you're the onething i got right this time.
so it seems, i guess by ignoring you is the only way to make you talk to me.
its strange how i cant seem to take my eyes off you and am trying my best to ignore you.
but when i really did ignore you, i still see you looking at me from the corners of my eye.and you're always in a position that you could see me most clearly.be it at 15 minutes smoking corner,grass patch or class.
you know,i really thought you didnt want this anymore like you said you dont.
but however it may seem, the pendant, you're wearing with my name on, is still on ur chain.
thats when i truely know you didnt wna let me go.its just not the time.
look baby,i know you;re still young and you wna play.i understand.
but by constantly asking me to find another isnt giving me signs thats you really want me to let go and move on.by telling me that guys are contacting me blah blah blah.. and that you SHOULD be happy for me is obviously and honestly telling me you are NOT happy.why would you keep asking me all this when it actually hurts you somehow? when you actually arnt any happier?
you may act tough and all but baby,dont you know,its onlya 3 minutes thing?you're not a good liar. and believe it or not,i do know you well enuf.
you wouldnt come all the way down to school when you didnt attend classes in the morning and arrive when classes are done.but because you called and i still had a class that day.you were home.you didnt have to come down. and even when you did,you weren't practising in school. so if you would to say that coming to school to practise is ultimate bullshit.
you wouldnt look for excuses to disturb me or to get me to sit beside you.
you wouldnt lay on my lap for fun.
you wouldnt look ur fingers between mine randomly.and its obvious telling me my nail colour's dropping was an excuse. you didnt have to lock fingers and hold my hand to tell me that you know.
and by apologising to me telling me you didnt know why you kissed me that night before we went seperate ways is also bullshit.
i just waited for you to pack ur stuffs and i said bye.you leaned over to kiss me on the lips before you said bye.
what was that kiss all about?
you tell me you dint know why you did that.
you weren't drunk b.
i can tell you the reason why you did that.
you still feel smthng. whatever crap you have been saying is all not what you aree feeling. what you did was what you really felt still for me.
cus you always do that.but dont come and fool me telling me it became a habit. cus its not.
i felt a tinggle when you kissed me that night. i felt smthng special.
and you wouldnt wait for 3 days later to apologise to me for that.
you wouldnt be noticing what i've been wearing or how i look in school if you werent interested anylonger.
and by taking intiatives to talk to me again?
caring and showing concern by asking me not to do this andthat indirectly telling me to takecare? disturbiing me like you used to? its definately not cus you wnaknow if imin school or not that you'll talk or call me.
simple talk leads into deep meanings baby.
somehow,i could read you. i understand what you're thinking about. iknow.
you also wouldnt keep pressing hints like "if you want me to comeback to you sing this blah blah blah for me". i didnt mention anything about this anymore when imtalking to you.but you keep doing it.
i feel a feeling so strong,i melt.
i felt a passion so bright,but i wasnt blind.
stop pls baby. stop telling me stuffs you dont feel. its obvious you feel more then just love.
i believe in you.i love you more then anything right now.
say im stupid but you know i'llbe here.
you know that. dont ask me to stop waiting when i know you want me to.
i'll be there for you.this 5 words i swear to you.
i'll continue waiting. and trying and doing all that i can.
anything you get back into those arms of yours.
i told you i'll nvr take the pendant out. and you didnt either.
i'll be strong.i'llwait.but just so you know, i am who i am now.
there's no use lying. i pray and wish upon the stars and moon for you to come back.
love always
Nana
idk why im still blogging.
i should just let this blog die.
but,my affections and wishes have not died.
so neither will this blog be dead.
there's nothing i could say to you,nothing i could ever do to make you see what you mean to me.
honestly,you're the onething i got right this time.
so it seems, i guess by ignoring you is the only way to make you talk to me.
its strange how i cant seem to take my eyes off you and am trying my best to ignore you.
but when i really did ignore you, i still see you looking at me from the corners of my eye.and you're always in a position that you could see me most clearly.be it at 15 minutes smoking corner,grass patch or class.
you know,i really thought you didnt want this anymore like you said you dont.
but however it may seem, the pendant, you're wearing with my name on, is still on ur chain.
thats when i truely know you didnt wna let me go.its just not the time.
look baby,i know you;re still young and you wna play.i understand.
but by constantly asking me to find another isnt giving me signs thats you really want me to let go and move on.by telling me that guys are contacting me blah blah blah.. and that you SHOULD be happy for me is obviously and honestly telling me you are NOT happy.why would you keep asking me all this when it actually hurts you somehow? when you actually arnt any happier?
you may act tough and all but baby,dont you know,its onlya 3 minutes thing?you're not a good liar. and believe it or not,i do know you well enuf.
you wouldnt come all the way down to school when you didnt attend classes in the morning and arrive when classes are done.but because you called and i still had a class that day.you were home.you didnt have to come down. and even when you did,you weren't practising in school. so if you would to say that coming to school to practise is ultimate bullshit.
you wouldnt look for excuses to disturb me or to get me to sit beside you.
you wouldnt lay on my lap for fun.
you wouldnt look ur fingers between mine randomly.and its obvious telling me my nail colour's dropping was an excuse. you didnt have to lock fingers and hold my hand to tell me that you know.
and by apologising to me telling me you didnt know why you kissed me that night before we went seperate ways is also bullshit.
i just waited for you to pack ur stuffs and i said bye.you leaned over to kiss me on the lips before you said bye.
what was that kiss all about?
you tell me you dint know why you did that.
you weren't drunk b.
i can tell you the reason why you did that.
you still feel smthng. whatever crap you have been saying is all not what you aree feeling. what you did was what you really felt still for me.
cus you always do that.but dont come and fool me telling me it became a habit. cus its not.
i felt a tinggle when you kissed me that night. i felt smthng special.
and you wouldnt wait for 3 days later to apologise to me for that.
you wouldnt be noticing what i've been wearing or how i look in school if you werent interested anylonger.
and by taking intiatives to talk to me again?
caring and showing concern by asking me not to do this andthat indirectly telling me to takecare? disturbiing me like you used to? its definately not cus you wnaknow if imin school or not that you'll talk or call me.
simple talk leads into deep meanings baby.
somehow,i could read you. i understand what you're thinking about. iknow.
you also wouldnt keep pressing hints like "if you want me to comeback to you sing this blah blah blah for me". i didnt mention anything about this anymore when imtalking to you.but you keep doing it.
i feel a feeling so strong,i melt.
i felt a passion so bright,but i wasnt blind.
stop pls baby. stop telling me stuffs you dont feel. its obvious you feel more then just love.
i believe in you.i love you more then anything right now.
say im stupid but you know i'llbe here.
you know that. dont ask me to stop waiting when i know you want me to.
i'll be there for you.this 5 words i swear to you.
i'll continue waiting. and trying and doing all that i can.
anything you get back into those arms of yours.
i told you i'll nvr take the pendant out. and you didnt either.
i'll be strong.i'llwait.but just so you know, i am who i am now.
there's no use lying. i pray and wish upon the stars and moon for you to come back.
love always
Nana
shutup and listen;
Saturday, January 30, 2010