LOVE ME OR HATE ME ITS STILL AN OBSESSION...
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i'm not the girl next door but the BITCH across the street.
i'm the kind that the girls don't like
i'm the kind that the boys fantasize
i'm the kind that your mama and your daddy's afraid who you'll turn out to be like
"she says she's no good with words,but im worse.
barely stuttered out a joke of romance stucked to my tongue
weighed down with words,too over dramatic
tonight its it can't get much more
no one should ever feel im two quarters and a heart down
and i don't want to forget how your voice sounds
these words are all i have,so i'll write...."
DROP DEAD GORGEOUS...
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bitch bitch bitch all you want...
I CRAVE FOR...
STRAWBERIES!!
DEY ARE WHY I LIVE...
Ath
bryan
Claire
Chiaa
CS
Debbie
ET
Elaine
HH
JieLing
Karishma
Kaen
Natiara
Nazri
Nazie
Pamela
Q
Regan
Sabri
Shi Hui
VanNessa
I WISH I WISH I WISH...
i'm next to my baby now...
CHANEL BOOTS
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
May 2010
a shot to kill the pain
a pill to drain the shame
a purge to stop the gain
a cut to break the vein
a smoke to ease the grave
a drink to win the game
an addiction's an addiction
cus it always hurts the same.
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you know,i don't wna be friends...
i never knew what to say anymore.
i never knew how to speak anymore.
Dear baby,
my blog's probably dead and there's more or less a high chance you're not viewing it.
you've been online alot recently cus your computer's fixed.
but i never knew how to talk or start a conversation anymore.
idk how or why.
there seemed to be so much i wna tell you.but seems i cant.
im not running away.
im not avoiding.
it had really been a hard few months without you.
i know what you're feeling about us.
i know you want the best for me and that you love methat much to care so fucking much.
but baby,have it ever occur to you that by doing this instead,im not any happier? by doing this instead,im suffering in slience?
its not only me who could tell you care this much you know baby.
you know, even you told Wayne you'll be gg to XY's party with me.
and you had to add "see if im doing anything or not that day lah"
you know, i really really hope with all my heart that you'll come along with me.
its fairly not cus of lust.
i just wna spend a night with you.
i really hope you'll be there with me.
fate?or just concidence?
first time its a passy by,
second,its concidence,
third, its fate.
you're always at an angle where both me and you could see each other clearly.
we're mostly always digonally opposite each other in class.
its hard for me to look away or even pretend you're not looking. cus god damn you are.
but you know,thats when im really glad, though im not right beside you or smthng,but there'll still be that smile on my face whenever its you i see.
baby, i dont wish to continue this pretence.
none of my smiles is me smiling from my heart alrdy.
exceptfor the days where i actually speak to you face to face.
i see the times you always play with the pendant.
and looking at it like it was something special.
as much as i hope,i sure hope it is still something special.
cus it is to me.its not only special.its precious.
i miss how much you always disturb me.
i miss how much i always pick up stupid fights with you.
i miss the long conversations you'llmake with me online.
i miss how you'll say you'lltalk to me when its halftime whenever there was a man u match.
i miss how we'll walk hand in hand in the dark park knowing im afraid to be walking alone.
i miss how you'llalways give me a kiss before we part (which you still do... and then you had to spoil everything by telling me you didnt know why you did it and that you're sorry you did.which i know you obviously do know why you did that.)
i miss how you always complain about the long journeys to and fro from tampines to cck but still insist on sending me home.
i miss giving you stupidly early morning calls and ur lazy voice in the morning.
i miss your hugs and kisses.
i miss everything about you.
i wish you were here.
idk what else i could say.
yes,i am always here.
and yes im hoping and am waiting.
cus right now, all i know is that i know you and that it is you.
i love you baby dear.
you know that right?
im excited and am looking forward to saturday with you.
i hope you wont play me out.
cus i'vealrdy told XY you're coming :)
love,
Nana
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